Family Of Blue Pt.2

Chapter 2

Lance's POV
My other friends come rushing into the room and stop in their tracks when they see me up against Keith's chest.

They come closer and smile widely at me but I do not return the gesture. How can I? Any time that I look at them, I see the disapproving eyes.

Hunk kneels down beside us. "Hey Buddy." He reaches out to touch me but I flinch away. Keith lets out a soft growl as a warning and my ears flatten against my head.

Hunk moves his hand back and his expression changes to sadness. A sadness that brings guilt to my mind. I made the sunshine cloud over, it was my fault that he is upset.

My baby boy murmured in his sleep and I stroke his soft hair. Allura stomps over to me and slaps my hand off of Caspian's head.

"Don't touch that thing. Lance! I don't care what happened to you right now, how dare you bring a Galra onto this ship!" Keith instantly snapped at her and wraps his arms around me.

I know Allura doesn't mean to be that horrible, she just scared of the Galra because they took everything from her.

"No! How dare YOU!" He is glaring at her and I shrink back in fear of his dominating attitude. "HE SAVED CASPIAN'S LIFE!!"

Allura backed away and I clenched one of my hands around my boyfriends arm. He picks me up off the ground and walks strongly out of the room.

I notice that we are heading towards Blue and I feel a warmth run throughout my mind. I don't look at Keith because I can tell that he is still is mad about Allura, I know it's my fault.

We arrive at Blue and make our way inside, Keith sits me down on the bed. I get up with an extremely wobbly movement.

I look at him an place a soft smile, although it wasn't fake, it was empty and meaningless.

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I shut the door to the bathroom and quietly lock it. I turn my attention to the mirror above the sink and see my face, I hadn't had a proper look at it since I became Galra.

I have to say that it doesn't look that bad but I also see a monster. Keith said I wasn't a monster but I can't help but to think I am. Is this how Keith feels?

My mind is racing with images that will haunt me forever. All of them dark and all of them too strong for my broken soul to fight.

The cabinet below the sink. In there lies something that I know I shouldn't use. I reach down and open the little door and there infront of me is a freshly cleaned sharpener blade.

This one I had in my pocket the day we saved Shiro, I used to use it at school. It was from my favourite pencil sharpener that I stole from the art department.

I pick it up and fiddle with it in my shaky fingers. Blue is once again nagging in my head, I know I should listen to her but it's too late now; I already have the blade out.

I made everyone upset and now I have to pay.

"My cub, put it down~" I know I should, but I need to punish myself for my incompetence and stupidity.

"I will tell Keith, and you know I do not lie~" oh god, Keith will be so angry with me.

I shut Blue out as I bring the small blade down onto my forearm, I hesitate slightly but still proceed.

Nothing. I feel nothing. Both my mind and body are numb to the damage I am doing. I can see myself drawing thin short lines across my skin but I can't feel the pain I know I should.

I can't tell how deep they are but I don't think they are that deep. I was already so dizzy before I walk into the bathroom but now I am really really dizzy.

The sharpener blade drops to the floor and I curl in on myself wrapping my arms around my frail Galra body. From outside the door I can here a voice.

"Lance!!...bang bang....let me!...bang...IN!!!"

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You know, what it feels like to be in love.
I don't really know and I was wondering what it feels like to other people.

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Sorry, I know that was random, I'm just feeling a little empty at the moment.

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