Introverted By My Thoughts [✓]

Passion Pain

(P. b.)

Show me what your love feels like,
She whispered into my ears,
Placing her both hands gently on my chest,
As she stood perfectly on her tipped toe trying to reach my ears.

My hands slid perfectly down her body,
Landing their rest on her waistline,
Right before her curves.
Those dark eyes, stared at mine,
With a childish innocence lurking in them.
Lord, She was beautiful.
How do I explain to her,
The darkness that resides in my heart?
How do I explain it to her,
That the previous love stories I have had in the past,
Has left a bitter taste on my tongue?
How do I explain to her,
That loving someone else, was just another story impossible for me say,
When I can no longer tell the difference?
With my head lowered down,
Avoiding her gaze,
I muttered words that sunk my heart as they left my mouth.

"I no longer know what love feels like. I'm trapped with so much hate and pain, I no longer know how to."

Teary eyelids, trying to stay strong.
I felt the vibration of my heart,
As a single drop rolled down my cheeks.
My walls; broken down,
And the memories came flooding back.
Scars I thought had healed,
Suddenly reopening, fresh as new.

She reached forward to me,
Placing my head on her shoulder,
Patting my hair.
"Then show me what your pain feels like"
In a low tone, she whispered to me.

Just what did she pain was?!
Clenching tight my fist,
I flipped open my eyes.
Was this all some game to her?
How dare she joke about things this way?
I trusted her to show her my weakness,
And she goes making fun of me this way?
I knew she won't understand!
I just knew she wouldn't!
Pushing her away from me,
I turned to back her,
Shouting at the top of my voice.

"Just what do you think real pain is?"

Ventilating, I felt her hand wrap around me from my back.
Placing her head on my back,
I could feel the heaviness of her beating heart.
And the vibration of her voice,
Rendering every inch of my body,
Paralysed as she voiced;

"Me, without you, in my life."