Introverted By My Thoughts [✓]

In all honesty

(P. b.)

If I'm going to be completely honest with myself,
I think "Getting the girl" has always been the favourite part for me.
But the moment I get her,
I don't want her anymore.
It's sad really, you don't have to tell me.
I already know how bad this makes me look.
I'm all committed in the beginning;
Always flirting,
Complimenting,
Quick to apologize,
Never the hot tempered head.
But once she says yes,
It's like I no longer have to put on the Mr nice guy charade.
I lose interest suddenly, and begin to notice all her flaws.
I flare up at anything she does,
And worse case scenario;
Little or no mood to have a conversation.
In no time; A break up,
I move on to the next.
It's no wonder why the List of Ex,
Is way too long.
It's like my body soul and mind,
Has been haywired to reject every good thing that happens to me.
I am no Saint,
I've pretty much done a lot of horrible things
And a lot of times, it scares me.
I don't say this often,
But it terrifies every hair on my skin,
That I'm going to end up a lonely, cold, bitter soul.