In My Skin ( Completed)

Chapter 22

Tameka~

I'm waiting for destiny to come back. I started by cleaning up the house i started with my room then destiny room which was hella dirty. papers , tissues and clothes everywhere. Then i went to my auntie room we always keep the door closed.

I walked in and sat on her bed. Touching her throw pillows i miss her so much. I started to clean up a little then i found papers that had my name on it.

I found 3 different notes or letters. i took them out the envelopes and read them.

Dear Tameka ,

I know you've grown up to be a wonder young women. i know you also thank i don't love you but i do . I couldn't take care of you plus i was on drugs really badly. I knew Marcus would hit you but i was afraid so i left you alone with him. I know i sound stupid but i had to i wanted a better life for you.

If you will please find it in your heart to forgive me. I will always love you

Denise your mom

I cried but i kept on going to the other letter

Dear Tameka,

I'm in rehab trying to get myself together. I'm coming to come home soon so we can get away from Marcus. Last night i went to check on you but Marcus smacked me and told me to leave. We had a big argument and things happen then i got hit with a wine bottle. Marcus is crying at my bed side.

I always hated him so much . And i know you want to be aunt queen and she says she will take you but I'm not to sure. I had you when i was young but i don't regret having you not one bit. I love you dearly

The counselors say i have 3 more months to go. Then me and you are going somewhere i don't care where but away from here. I've been clean for 1 month now i cant wait to see you. I'm sorry i wasn't there for your birthday i know i should of been there . I miss you so much words can not express

Dear Tameka,

Your aunt wont let me see you. She says I'm crazy i know i made a lot of bad decision in my life but i beg you don't follow after me. Do better than me please.

Your father die from a bullet in his chest. I was your father main bitch back in the old school. I loved him so much but he loved his drugs more than me. So i tried to make him love me and that's how you came. I should be getting out in a couple of days. I'm doing very good i had a little weed plus before i came here i was suppose to have a little boy but he died. I cried many days but now you know if i ever die i want you to stay strong and be the women i know you will be.

Love, Mommy

I wiped my tears as i read all three. The letters were three pages long but i didn't read them all. I put the letters back in the envelope and took them to my room.

I put them in my drawer then the door bell ringed. I went down the stairs and turned the knob . It was destiny

"hey" destiny say coming into the house with her bags

" wassup " I say getting a lemon Lipton ice tea

" did ya miss me" she says taking a sip from my tea 

" hell yea " I say flipping my bang

We hug each other i swear we've been apart to long. i helped her with her bags then i saw her arms. They had bandages

" what the hell happen to your arms ? " I ask staring at her arms

" nothing" she said using her jacket to cover it up

"let me see " I say trying

We finally made it to her room . She put her bags down and removed her bandages it had my name , devon's , layla's and justice name on her arms.

"why did you do this ? why ? " I ask looking at her arm

"i don't wanna talk about it " destiny says

She puts the bandages back on. I felt bad i wanted to touch our names so badly. I know she is hurting but you have to tell me whats wrong. I helped her unpack her stuff while sitting on her bed

"does justice know ? " I ask destiny

" yes he was there " she says get annoyed with me

"why didn't you call me ?" I ask semi yelling

"why do you care ? I know you hate me i hate myself " destiny says looking down

"i don't hate you what do you mean ? you shouldn't hate yourself " I  say

" please get out my room"  destiny says turning away from me

"destiny " I say touching her shoulder

"  Get Out !" She yells at me

I walk out her room and she slams the door in my face. I walk back to my room i didn't mean to hurt her or i don't even know what i did.

4 am ~

I felt my bed have extra weight on it. I looked up then it was destiny crying.

" I'm sorry for yelling at you i should of never did that. " destiny say feeling bad

"I'm sorry to i just wanna know what happen to you " I sat up realizing I was wrong to

"you know how i have low self-esteem right so i had one of my moment and i cut everyone name in my arm. That i thought about " Destiny says explain herself

"was it bad thought ? " I ask

" yes " destiny says looking at her arm

She started to cry rubbing her eyes. I could only imagine what she went through.

"i thought you were better than me. Your light skin and flawless You can have every guy and any. Look you don't have stretch marks on your body ! Me I'm fucking suffering , I'm dark skin . All guys want light skin chicks like you all the guys look at me and say swerve. I never told anyone but Justice is trying to play me he don't love me. He don't know what the fuck love is ! my life is bullshit as you can see " destiny says telling me everything

"I know but my life isn't the shit either. I'm fucked up to . I can help you if you just let me" I say

"how am i going to get rid of these stretch marks " she says looking at me

"well if you work out and use coco butter it might work " I say stating my solution

"okay ill give it a try " she says sounding a little happy

"thats good " I say

I gave her a hug and she walked out my room

" night bitch " she says going back to her old self

"fuckin thot " I say turning over to go back to sleep

She left out closing the door behind her . i turned over and went back to sleep;  distance could never break our friendship up

I wasn't planning on updating but this to my loyal readers who wanted to know what happen next. Don't forget to comment and vote, I wanna know what you think.