not over you // m.espinosa & s.wilk, ft l.butler

(17) It's a FaceTime kind of Night

This chapter really sucks, it's short, and long overdue because I was on vacation for a week and then I've been going through some things. plus, i have some terrible writers block. The next chapter will be alot better, i promise.

song of the chapter: beside you by five seconds of summer

"He kissed you?!" Morgan squealed.

"He kissed me!" I replied. For the time I left Idaho, Logan and Morgan had been back to together and we were able to be Friends, no hard feelings. It was awkward at first, but the past is the past.

"So what happened after that? Do you guys like talk everyday and stuff?" She questioned sitting down next to me.

"He's on Sunsation Tour right now but he calls and texts me as much as he can." I told her. Were not exactly officially, but we have been closer than ever.

"Awe that's so cute!" Morgan squeaked.

"Awe, so cute!" Logan mocked as he sat next to Morgan on the bed. There was still something I felt for Logan, but he seemed a lot happier with Morgan. I wasn't gonna be selfish and not talk to Morgan because she is with him.

"Where is he right now?" she asked, looking at her phone.

"Washington DC. They finished their show already." I replied.

"We should go pick up the kids now." Logan said standing up and grabbing the keys. We nodded and followed him out to the car.

Saying I missed Matthew was an understatement. He was like something I needed with me at all times, like your phone or keys. I'm going to be back in California in a few days for a photo shoot anyway.

All of us are gonna meet up and our family is gonna be whole again. I actually found out that Tina and Cameron are together and I practically yelled at her for not telling me soon enough. She wanted it to be a 'surprise'.

Also Kalel went to visit Jacob on tour for a few days. To think that she would be with Shawn.

Life is just full of surprises. You never really know whats gonna happen next, just go with the flow. I've been doing that ever since i met the guys. My life just took a complete turn and im having a hard time deciding if it was for better or for worse.

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"Not a day goes by where i dont think about you Beverly." He said to me with sad eyes. I hated seeing him like this, but i didnt want to be the reason why fans didnt have an opportunity to meet him. Im gonna be seeing alot more than they were.

"Two more weeks and then you can come and see me," I smiled, trying to make this situation more positive. I texted Carter telling him to try and cheer him up and he made a joke saying he knew this girl that could do the trick. He personally found it funny, and i wanted to choke the crap outta him.

"Im thinking about just coming back. I cant do this." He said lookind down at his hands. This was so heartbreaking for me, i almost wanted to say yes. Im not gonna be selfish though,.

"Matthew please," I pleaded looking at him through my laptop screen, "Just think of it as 14 days. I will be back in Cali for a few days You're gonna be back soon, we can just hang out all the time."

"I don't think I can wait any longer babe." he said to me.

He called me babe. Holy crap, stay calm. Act normal. Refrain yourself from freaking out.

"Look, i miss you too. We just have to be strong together." I guess you could say we were in some sort of relationship. It's not official because he didn't ask me, but I like to tell myself we are.

"Okay, when I come back, were gonna spend as much time together before I head back to Virginia to get everything and move out." he said smiling, probably thinking about the thought if us together.

"I was talking to Colette, wondering when she would be good on her own, maybe a week or two after the kids school ends." We talked about moving in together but we don't know for sure yet. We're not even a couple for goodness sakes.

"So what's gonna happen to you? Ya know, what about us?" he questioned, rubbing the back of his neck.

I could tell he was pretty hesitant to ask that question. Probably because our relationship could change as time progresses. But, who knows?

"I don't know. We said we weren't gonna talk about moving in together yet." I told him. As much fun as it sounded to move in with Matthew, there's others things I'm worrying about at the moment.

"There's gonna be a time where we have to though. We can't just keep putting it off like this." he said getting a little frustrated.

"Matthew, it's like nine months from now. Stop focusing on the future, worry about what's happening right here and right now." I replied to him. I could tell there is so much he's thinking about right now.

Probably about Sunsation almost being over, us meeting back up pretty soon, moving to LA. It looked like he hasn't been getting much sleep lately either. My poor baby.

"Are you alright?" I asked him. It was really random but I am extremely worried.

"Why would you think I'm not?" he asked looking down at the table that was probably on the tour bus.

I stayed silent for a while, trying to find an answer.

"You don't look alright. How much sleep have you been getting lately?" I questioned. Wow, I feel like one of those moms that always ask how their child is doing.

"None at all, but I wish I was." he laughed, "It would be a lot better if you were here to sleep next to me."

my cheeks began to turn a dark shade of red. I was so flustered that I had to look away.

"You're a cheesy dork." I smiled, trying to cool off my cheeks, if that is even possible.

"Hey, don't you try to hide that gorgeous face from me."

My face was probably as red as a strawberry. The thing with matthew is that he liked to remind me everyday that I was beautiful. Whether he would tell me straight up or even if he did it as smooth as possible, he still managed to make me feel some type of way.

"I'm gonna go to sleep now you goofball." I said turning to face the camera.

"Awe but it's still early." he pouted, giving me puppy dog eyes.

"I have to wake up early and you need sleep to." I bossed him.

"Alright then, goodnight babe." he slightly smiled.

"Goodnight." I smiled back, waving. Hitting the red button, his face disappeared from my screen. It would've been a better night with him right next to me.