not over you // m.espinosa & s.wilk, ft l.butler

(32) Phone Calls

I opened my eyes as the sound of my phone going off, rang through my ears. I groaned into the pillow, trying to block out the sound as much as possible. "Please answer the phone." Sammy groggily said next to me. I grabbed it off the bedside table and answered it. "Hello?"

"Bev, I'm sorry to wake you up but I really needed to talk to you." I hear Logan's voice through the phone. It sounded as if he was or is crying. "Are you alright?"

He paused for a second and I heard faint sobs. "I might loose her Bev." I knew exactly who he was talking about. He knew that I knew. He loved her so much more, probably more than he ever loved me. They were perfect for each other and you could see the love in both of their eyes. His sobs turned into cries and it hurt me inside. I may have moved on from Logan but he was still a good friend and it kills me seeing him so hurt, knowing that I couldn't be with him, his shoulder to cry on.

"Logan, just cry it out for a few minutes okay. I'll be right here on the call and if you're ready to talk, talk. Alright?" I spoke softly, remembering that Sammy was still asleep next to me. He didn't say anything but I could hear him nodding through the other line. His cries became louder and louder, like he lost someone important in his life. Even though he probably might loose someone important in his life.

I laid on my back, listening to him cry it all out. The sobs lessened by the second and it became silent. "She is my everything Beverly. I already lost you and I can't risk loosing her." Wow, that's so weird of him to say that. I wouldn't think he missed being in a relationship.

"I really wanted her to do this but I didn't want to loose anyone else," he paused, "What am I supposed to do? Long distance relationship never work." I sighed, not knowing what to say. Matthew and I sorta had a long distance but I mean it wasn't a relationship.

"Talk to her. Don't convince her out of this, just tell her how much you love her and maybe, if she loves you just as much , she wouldn't go." I haven't known Morgan for a while, but I do know her ways. Theres more to the story than she's telling, but that's really nome of my business. "Thank you Beverly, did I ever tell you how much of an amazing person you are and without you I'd be lost?" he said, making me smile. Even if he was down, he always found another way to make other people feel better about themselves.

"I really appreciate that Logan. i am Going to bed because it's too early in the morning, and you should too. Love you." I replied. We said our goodbyes and hung up. He's such a good person and I'm not just saying that because we dated. Even though I moved on from him, I'm pretty jealous of Morgan. She got such an amazing guy, and I do hope she doesn't let him go. Plus, they can keep a stable relationship.

I know Matthew and I never really even dated, but they still managed to keep whatever they had going. I actually realized why Matthew and I never really got to date. Every time the thought of liking him came to mind, I always pushed it away. or maybe I knew that I was trying to tell myself I did like him to get over Logan.

But he knew. He knew that if I didn't want to be with him, he could easily go back to Bobby. That's what hurts the most. He wouldn't be that affected by it, he knew that he wouldn't leave broken hearted. He chose to do it to me instead. Maybe it was intentional and maybe it wasn't, either way it shouldn't happen.

It keeps a girl wondering and wondering why. The curiosity just gnaws away at you and it hurts. Then you wish you never found out.

Even though I never really met Bobby, Matthew shouldn't leave her. No girl should ever have to wonder why she wasn't enough. It makes them feel like they're not enough and they don't ever live up to people's expectations.

But it happens and it sucks.

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"I missed you so much!" Kalel yelled as she jumped into my arms. I laughed, hugging her back. Its been a while since I've seen her, probably months. Mostly because she's been on tour with Shawn. They are actually the cutest couple ever. A month or two after the trip, he finally came to his senses and admitted he liked her. So at his very first show, with Kalel in the crowd, he asked her to be his girfriend. She wasn't very fond of the idea of being asked out in public but she agreed. They kissed that very night, and sadly, I wasn't there to witness it. "Welcome back." she smiled before letting go.

Thalia then came from behind her and gave me a hug. "I missed you." she said. After summer ended, that meant Thalia had to go back to college. My prediction was wrong, and her and Carter never dated. I was pretty upset but things happen. Although, there is this guy she's been talking about. They've been on a handful of dates but he didn't ask her out yet. His name is Harry and he isn't from America (a/n yes this harry styles and no he isn't famous in this book), so I hope to meet him soon because I love anyone with an accent that isn't american. She let go and gave me a small smile.

I looked at Tina but didn't hug her because we literally saw each other two days ago. But hey, are you ready for her life update? Anyways, yet again, my prediction was terribly wrong and she didn't end up with Cameron. Something happened that, and to this day, she still hasn't spoken about it with me. she dates Jack and cameron really wasn't happy about it. He tried and tried to "get her back" but gave up and let them be. They are actually really cute and seem to be a better couple.

I was actually happy that the four of us are back together. Its been quite a while and we all seem to be doing well in our lives. Even though we aren't gonna be together for long, it won't matter as long im with them. It does make me feel like a loner knowing that they all are in some sort of relationship. But there are plenty of fish in the sea, and I'm absolutely positive that this time, I made a good catch.

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UGHJSJJD SO I HAD TO REMAKE THIS CHAPTER AND IM NOT THAT PROUD OF THIS AND I RUSHED BC I REALLY WANTED TO GET IT UP. anyways this is like the second to last chapter guys. but I'm going to posting a sammy Fic after this so watch out for that. I actually got the idea from my cousin, tisha/thalia, who got the idea from this book. any doodle hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, hasta mañana ! :)