Broken

Chapter 1

She woke up in a heap of sweet and tangled blankets. She was screaming. That nightmare again She's been having it all week. The same things, the same words, everything. She suddenly felt a little dizzy and nauseas. He scrambled of the bed and made a run for the bathroom. She closed the door on her way in, even though she was alone in her room, because her mother didn't want her to share a room with her boyfriend- Jace. She started vomiting in to the toilet uncontrollably every time she thought it was over another wave of food came out of her mouth and nose. Her throat hurt from the screaming and the vomiting. She hoped into the shower with her clothe on and turned the shower on cold. She just sat there crying, the tears rolling down her cheeks, the water soaking her clothe and hair.

Every time she had that nightmare she would wake up screaming, Dizzy, vomiting and with temporary amnesia.

She knew were she was but she didn't know why she was under the shower and soaking wet. She Woke up screaming again. She knew were she was or at least she thought she knew, but didn't know why she was in the shower soaking wet. She heard foot steps she was too weak from throwing up that she couldn't even sit straight. The door suddenly opened and she saw him. The one person who could actually make her whimper. Sebastian.

"Clary! What are you doing here? And why are you wet?" he said. His voice full of concern and worry.

"Please don't hurt me. Please, I beg you please don't hurt me Sebastian. Please don't. Please." She keep repeating the word 'please' over and over again in beat twine sobs and whimpers.

"I'm not going to hurt you, Clary, I promise and I'm not Sebastian, I'm Jace you're boyfriend remember, Sebastian died two months ago, remember." He said. Clary then recognized the golden hair and gold eyes that drove her crazy with desire.

"Jace! Come help-" She was cut of abruptly by nausea. If I speak or waist any other second I might throw up on the floor right here right now. Clary thought. Clary jumped out of the shower almost slipping on water. She turned to the toilet and threw up over and over again. Jace,not even once thought of leaving he just stood there helping her through it all. When she was done she went again into the shower and turned the water on cold. Se closed her eyes and passed out.

Jace took the opportunity that she was passed out to carry her out of the shower and place her gently on her bed. She tossed and turned all night, she kept having the nightmares, but instead of screaming she just woke up and ran to the bathroom and threw up over and over.

Morning came and when Clary woke up she was in the shower soaking wet and cold. She got up slowly and carefully not to slip on water. She went to the room and opened the closet she took out a black tank top, dark skinny jeans, and a gray of the shoulder sweater. She put black combat boots on and tried to tame her red curls into a messy bun.

Clary went down the corridors in silence. She was lost in her own mind and thoughts. Clary was trying to remember why she was in the shower that morning and why was she wet. She was so lost in thought that she bumped into Jace in the hallway. She looked up to see a smiling Jace looking down at her.

"Good morning beautiful." He said, while bending down to kiss her in the lips. His lips felt like home, She thought. She loved him so much and he loved her so much.

They been through so much together that nothing literally nothing could come between them.

She pulled away slowly not taking her eyes of Jace. You could see the love in his eyes when he looked at her.

"Good morning" She said smiling at him.

"How are you feeling?, Considering you woke up screaming last night" He said letting his voice fill with concern.

"What do you mean by 'considering you woke up screaming last night'?" She was now very worried because she didn't remember anything from the night before except that she woke up in he shower soaking wet.

"Well, you woke up screaming and screaming, so I went to your room. When I saw you weren't in your bed I herd the shower and opened the door slowly and there you were sitting in the shower, with your eyes half open.
When you saw me you started to whimper and said 'Please don't hurt me. Please, I beg you please don't hurt me Sebastian. Please don't. Please.' And then I told you that I wasn't going to hurt you and that I wasn't Sebastian that he was dead. At that you seemed to snap out of whatever had happened and you wanted me to come help you but you started throwing up and then when you finished you just passed out and I took you to your bed and left you there sleeping." He said.

But if he took me to my bed and left me there, how did I wake up at the shower? She thought.

"But, if you put me in bed, how did I wake up in the shower soaking wet?" Clary said looking at the floor and trying to remember something."Wait did you said that I called you 'Sebastian'?" When he nodded Clary tensed all over, Jace noticed and looked straight into her emerald green eyes and said "Why do I get the feeling that you are not telling me something? Did he do something to you? Did he hurt you?". She just looked into his golden eyes, shook her head and looked away.

"No, no. I already told you everything .He did nothing to me. Well he tried but he did not succeed." She said not looking him in the eyes. She felt so ashamed, she was lying to the love of her life. It was breaking her inside. She wanted to kneel in front of him and confess everything Sebastian did to her, but she couldn't. Clary couldn't tell him because she couldn't face the person she loves after telling him that her evil brother hurt her in so many ways.

"I know. You told me when we were in Idris." He said still unsure that Clary was telling the truth.

"Come on I'm starving! Hopefully Izzy isn't cooking." Clary joked. She loved Izzy but she was not lying when she says that Isabelle cannot cook. At all.

She was walking hand in hand with Jace. They turned to a corner and there they were her family, her three best friend.

"Hey guys! Want pancakes and bacon?"

Said one very exited and smiling Isabelle.

"It depends on who made them" Jace said smiling while Clary was giggling.

"Don't worry guys we made them." said Alec and Simon returning the smile. They all loved each other so much they were each others best friends.

"Good because I'm starving." Clary said while making her way to the big table with a plate of stacked pancakes and a plate full of bacon. There was orange juice and syrup too. She took five pancakes and a lot of bacon. Clary was eating very fast and she hadn't noticed that everyone in the room was staring at her until Simon spoke first.

"Clary slow down. It's not gonna run away. The pig is already dead." He had a shocked and amused face on that made Clary smile.

"I know Simon. I just wanna finish quickly so that I can go train the rest of the day." She was smiling at them. She really did love them.