Broken

Chapter 4

Clary was all alone in Magnus's bathroom. She sat there on the floor staring at the stick in her hands.

What am I going to tell Jace? What am I going to tell my mom and dad? What am I gonna do? I'm only 17 years old. I've got no money, no house, no job. I've got nothing. I'm in so much trouble. I can't tell Jace or anyone else, at least not until I'm ready. Clary thought with tears streaming down her cheeks.

She got up from the floor and stepped into the hallways.

"Magnus? Magnus! I need your help. I can't figure this out." She yelled. Clary was walking down the hall into the living room. When she entered the living room she saw Magnus sitting on the floor blue flames coming from his hands. Clary guessed he was working on the wards so they couldn't track her.

"It's done. The wards are up and they can't track you." Magnus said standing up from the floor the blue flames disappearing from his hands. "What was it you needed help with?"He asked pointing at the stick in her hands. He extended his hand and Clary hesitated for a moment, but gave him the test. He looked at it and then looked back at her, both excitement and pity in his cat like eyes.

"Clary-I don't know whether to be happy or sad- so I'm just gonna say it. You're pregnant." Magnus said waiting for Clary's reaction. She just stood there looking at his face. She couldn't move or speak.

"Clary? Are you okay? You seem a little pale." Magnus asked waving a hand in front of her face. Clary slowly shook her head. She moved one foot to the front and then collapsed to the floor on her knees crying and sobbing. Magnus knelt by her side and embraced her as she sobbed.

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Once Izzy and Simon had dinner at Taki's they headed back to the institute to train a little. They were getting off the bike when Izzy got a text. It was Jace.

"Izzy have you seen Clary?" He sounded agitated and worried.

"No. Why?"

"I got worried because she hadn't called me and you didn't call me so I decided to use the tracking rune and I got nothing. I've texted and called. Shes not answering her phone, Izzy. I'm really worried."You could hear the sadness and worry in his voice.

"Fine. I'll call her and see what she's up to." Izzy hing up and dialed Clary's number. She picked up on the third ring.

"Hello?" Clary sounded as if she were crying her eyes out.

"Hey were are you? Jace said that I invited you to the mall." What Izzy said was true. Jace had told her that Clary had gone out to meet her at the mall.

"I know. I'm sorry Izzy but I have to go. Tell Jace that I'm okay and that I'll be home soon." Clary hung up.

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Clary had just hung up on Isabelle. She had been crying since she found out about her pregnancy. She was so angry at Sebastian for doing what he did. Clary was sad that it wasn't Jace's child. She loved him. If she told him it wasn't his child he'd think Clary cheated on him.

Clary had decided to wait until she was bigger and couldn't train to tell him. Magnus had gone to the kitchen to get her more tea. He returned with a tea tray with two tea cups he set it down on the table and sat down next to her. She took the cup and drank in silence.

"So what are you gonna do?" Magnus broke the silence as he drank his tea. Clary let out a sigh.

"I don't know. I guess hide it until I cant hide it anymore." She had been clutching her cup so hard that her knuckles were white. The tea cup shattered in her hands soaking her jeans and sweater.

"I'm so sorry Magnus. I'm sorry."

She was picking the shards and placing them on the tray. She picked up a big shard of glass off the floor and slashed her palm. The blood was a very dark shade of red. Clary dropped the shard of glass on the floor and stepped back almost falling on the couch.

"Magnus. Look. My Blood." Clary's eyes were wide with horror. If I have demon blood inside of me than I'll be just like Sebastian. She thought she was horrified.

"Oh my god Clary. Why is your blood so dark? Did someone hurt you or something?" Magnus had her hand in his and was checking it. He dipped his finger in her blood and rubbed it on his thumb. Magnus looked straight into Clary's eyes. He could see sadness, hurt and anger.

"Magnus, If I tell you a secret do you swear that you wont repeat it to anyone else not even the clave?" She was staring straight into his eyes to see if there was something that could hold her back from revealing the biggest secret she's ever had, but all she saw were caring, trust worthy eyes.

"Sure Clary you know you can trust me. Come on sit down and tell me. What's wrong?" Magnus sat down on the couch and patted the spot next to him. Clary obediently flopped down beside him and took a deep breath.

"Okay, Magnus, Im gonna need you to take a deep breath and please don't freak out." She was avoiding his cat like eyes that stared into her sole. Magnus did as Clary asked and took a deep breath.

"You remember when Sebastian had been linked to Jace-" He nodded." You remember the day that Sebastian turned the Shadowhunters into Endarkened, right?" She was hopping to advance so she skipped right to the part.

"You mean the battle were you stabbed Jace with Glorious?" Clary nodded and sighed. She knew that Magnus will keep her secret but she's still worried about how he's gonna react.

"Hmmm. Well, just a few hours earlier, Sebastian sent Jace ahead to the mortal war. We had a little fight and he confessed his 'love' to me. I tried to escape but he caught me. Sebastian hit me I hit him he threw me to a glass coffee table and pinned me to the floor. He took out a stele and drew an immobilization rune and paralyzed my body. I screamed and screamed but he just muted me with a rune. He started kissing me and undoing the buttons on my pants. I screamed for hours and know one came. I knew that know one would come, but I had hoped that Jace would have come back." Clary had tears streaming down her cheeks. She hated remembering the awful memory. Magnus was checking every inch of her face to see if she was okay. But she clearly wasn't.

"What? So he... Raped you?" Magnus saw the sadness in her eyes and face. He was a bit confused. He knew she was sad and unhappy that she was pregnant, but he didn't know why. Maybe this was why she was unhappy? He thought.