Paul Withers' Gay Diary

June 31 2018

I really like this guy I saw at school...he's at the second floor of our building so basically he's my 'higher year'. He has fluffy hair and looks like one of those "korean ulzzang boys" HAHAHA if u don't know what that is, would recommend searching it.

I don't want to expose his gorgeous name so lets call himmmmmm... DRAKE, yeah ok.

I always see Drake cause he's a student in theater arts so every time he needs to go to the theater room, he had to pass by our classroom and I would always get excited to see him cause it always made my day. He doesn't know who the frick I am so that's kind of good cause it would be really embarrasing if he went to my Facebook profile HAHAHA. I also don't really want to get noticed by my crushes cause I'm a really awkward person. One time Drake was passing by or classroom then my three BFFs literally screamed my name...REPEATEDLY so I went inside the classroom and hid cause I was scared. What if he looked at me while I was running to hide and was like 'what the heck?' or what if he heard my name and he searched it on Facebook cause maybe he thinks I like him?

AHHHH IDK ANYMORE

Truth is, I overreact when it comes to situations like this. I would always think about the possible results and if its good or bad. And fun fact SIS: when one of my crushes know me and interacts with me, I SPACE OUT. IDK I'm just 'that' kind of an introvert. I always think of myself as a shadow of my 2 BFFs. I have 3 BFFs...and i also don't want to expose them so let's give them codenames:

Yeezy and Gucci are the 2 most popular girls in my class and they always get the boyz cause they're so pretty and nice(sometimes).

And then there's Suzy, the best friend that I relate to the most. I guess you can say we're BOTH the shadows of Yeezy and Gucci. Since there's no actual thrill happening in our lives most of the time we're just listening to Yeezy and Gucci talking about how much boys they have. Suzy and I are like the people that are desperately waiting for a prince/princess charming to come and ask for our number (we're both bisexual btw). We relate so much that sometimes you can even call us soulmates! But let's not get to that sis HAHA. The thing that i love about Suzy the most is that she knows how I feel about Drake or about my crushes in general cause she feels the same way about the people she likes. Tbh most of the time I only talk to Suzy and not to Yeezy and Gucci, but we're still the BFF SQUAD so I still have to look after those two.

Sometimes I just wish I had the same lives as Yeezy and Gucci, cause for me I always have to work hard for what I want...but they could just say that they want it and POOF THERE YOU GO SIS. And the problem is, they're not even satisfied with what they have. They always want more, but if I were them I would feel so accomplished and happy and SO SO satisfied, but idk sis i guess they have to realize it themselves...

That's all for the crazy things that I want to say for this day. Its kind of short but its because not much has happened on this day...but SIS don't worry cause more tea will be spilled soon HAHA bye for now... :)