SIS at this rate, I don't know what i'm doing with my life...there's no thrill or excitement anymore. Yeah there's Drake, but there's literally NO PROGRESS AT ALL. I keep getting more nervous every time I try to interact with him and I don't even like him that much. I keep hearing these rumors about him being a pervert HAHA. I know that he drinks, but its cool with me as long as he doesn't force other people to drink. :3
Honestly...life's been greater when I didn't see him that often anymore. It's kinda breaking myself apart every time I see him cause I get reminded of Kimho. And I can't really interact with him even if I try, cause I'm always busy with projects or my artworks. TBH the feelings are starting to fade away and I'm not really mad about it, cause it's hard liking someone that you already know won't like you back. I feel really stressed out recently cause there's so much stuff going on in my mind everyday and I really don't know how to prioritize my stuff sometimes so its making it worse.
It's almost time to move to another apartment cause our landlady sold the land we were living in, so she gave us time to find a new apartment...and we did. Everyday is getting more and more stressful cause there's so much stuff adding up to my problems, but I'm kinda used to it so I just went with it. I had to catch up with what I missed the past few days in school too, cause I got food poisoning from eating a crab HAHA. Me and the class president had to coach my class for a competition for "Poetry in Motion" and I realized how stressful teaching is cause the people you're teaching are really hard to discipline, and whenever you teach or say something, some of them make faces and I'm actually FED UP WITH IT. Everything is happening so fast and I have to do all of these things in a span of one month...THAT AIN'T ENOUGH SIS!
Sometimes I just look up in the sky and feel relaxed, cause whenever I see the sky, I always get reminded that I'm looking at the same sky that Kimho's looking at. It's not really about how beautiful the sky is, it's about how you feel when you look at it. <3
Honestly SIS...This day really sucked cause it was kind of the usual,but SIS... something really weird happened.
I was on the way home when this cute college guy kept looking at me, I didn't really know how to react so I just smiled at him. He smiled back and I kept walking to my house then I realized he was my ACTUAL NEIGHBOR. When I opened my gate, he stopped at the gate that was literally JUST BESIDE MINE then he smiled at me again. I went inside and I was weirded out cause I didn't know him at all, usually people would smile at me cause they know me... but sometimes I do tend to forget some people who I know so I guess he's an acquaintance. All I can say is:
His curly hair was FLAWLESS<3
That's all the things that are worth telling today. I really wonder who that guy was, for know let's call him "Mr.Mystery"... that's honestly all that I can come up with HAHA. But anyways, much more tea shall be spilled soon I hope... cause I'm actually so busy haha.
SISTER PAUL IS OUT<3
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Paul Withers' Gay Diary
RomanceHeY SiS!!! I'm Paul Withers, a young, bisexual writer and an art student, and i wanted a place where i could just let out all my bottled up feelings. I wanted to write it in my notes in my phone but I wanted to share my ShiZzy life to other people...
