Jeff x Ben-Dirty Mind

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After that, we cuddled and fell asleep together. As I sobered up I started to panic a little. I can't believe I got back together with an ex, I would never do that. If I wasn't so drunk and vulnerable I would've told him to fuck off and get bent. I can't believe I was so easy, especially for that bastard.

The question I keep asking myself is why?

Why did he come back? Why now? After all this time.

It doesn't make any sense. I don't know how I'll explain this to Ben. He hadn't even crossed my mind more than once while Devon had been here.

Godammit. Here Devon comes into my life again just to ruin everything.

I sighed as I looked up at him. I was resting in his arms and he had them wrapped around me protectively. I've never cuddled up to someone else before. I was always a top. I've gotten stronger but so has he. I noticed it in bed. He's gotten even better in bed too if that's even possible.

I sighed as I closed my eyes gently. When I woke up, I half expected him to be gone but he wasn't.

He wasn't in bed so I internally panicked before I heard footsteps in the kitchen. I pretended to be asleep as they approached my room. For some reason, I heard him shut and maybe even lock my door. It's not like I felt unsafe though. I know how to take care of myself.

I didn't know why I was about to freak out. Why was he even still here? He should leave now so it hurts less when he's gone.

"I know you're awake baby." He said gently. Even though it was familiar, It still felt weird to be called baby. Especially by him after all this time.

I mumbled into the sheets as I shifted and my shirt rose up my waist slightly. I heard him suck in a breath and smiled to myself. Even though I drink a lot, I still eat kinda healthy and go to the gym when I can.

I sighed as I threw myself up and then looked around as I smacked my lips. I then looked him in the eyes with a scowl. I love him and I would break down if he left but I knew I needed him to leave. He hurt me a while ago and will do it again. I know people like him never really change.

I can't even imagine the thoughts I must've had last night. I was so drunk and emotional, he probably thought he could just lift me up and carry me away with him. He probably thinks I'll do anything for him and stay with him forever.

"Got any booze?" I asked him casually in my hoarse voice as I rubbed my eyes and stretched.

He flinched a little. I bet no one can sound as sexy as me in the morning.

"Didn't you just get drunk, like, last night?" He asked as he cocked an eyebrow at me and cupped my chin.

I grabbed his wrist and placed his hand on the bed, away from me. He shouldn't think he can touch me so easily. even after last night.

"Why yes. Yes, I was. I was vulnerable too." I snapped as I glared at him. He gulped and leaned back as I leaned forward in an intimidating way.

"So don't get any crazy fucking ideas," I said sourly with an amused smile and he widened his eyes slightly. He probably thinks I'm still that little-abandoned puppy he left alone all those years ago. Just to wallow in sadness for all eternity.

Ah, hell no. I'm much more confident these days.

I smiled slyly as I closed my eyes and yawned again. Stretching enough for my shirt to rise. I knew he was crazy about me. It wasn't just one-sided, but he was the one that left. I still have no idea why, but if it will hurt less, I'd rather not know.