Everything At Once

Therapy & Its Perks.

it isn't for everyone.
not everyone wants to "talk about why they're sad" or "try to get better" with help like that.
some people like handling things themselves, even if one day it kills them.
i couldn't do that anymore, so i decided to seek out help for myself. guess what? i found it.

i went with my other friend one time to one of her appointments and asked Sharon, her therapist, if they were able to squeeze me in. she fortunately said yes and the week after was my first visit.

the first time i actually went into the room to talk to Sharon alone, i was a bit nervous. i had never had this type of help before, i was always kind of iffy about it but i knew what i had to do.
we talked for about an hour and day by day, i became more comfortable. i saw her once a week for about a month and a half, until she had to switch where she worked.
she was working in my town and they switched who ran the place. She didn't like it so she left. Now she works a town away but it's close to my school so i still see her.

seeing Sharon has shown me a lot of things i've never seen. she's helped me grow as a human being trying to find my way in life. i don't feel weird about getting on antidepressants or anxiety meds. i don't feel like i'm an issue as much. i feel a bit more normal, i suppose.

she's taught me a lot in the last few months. you didn't love me and i didn't need you. he never loved me and he caused trauma that i have to deal with on my own terms. i can have a personal bubble that i don't have to let anyone into because that's just for ME. that bubble will be explained more in the next part of this but it's helped me lately. this is one of the best choices i've ever made. not having you here is one of the best choices i've ever made and letting go of people that don't need me is a really good one too.