a lot has happened in the last twelve months. i've grown a lot during them and i think i'm a lot happier where i am now. i lost people, lost trust and lost myself to get her but sometimes i look back and think "should i have done that?" sometimes the answer is yes and sometimes it's no but you have to learn so you can improve. a year ago today, i would've been crying every night about my grandmother's death and in denial about my boyfriend of the time while contemplating if i should go to school the next day or even wake up the next morning. but here i am, i got through it. i got through losing my childhood bestfriend and i'm eternally grateful that she's in my life now. i got through telling the person i've had feeling for since middle school that i still have them and now we've been dating for almost a year & make eleven months on December 1st. i got through losing almost everything in my life to get a job, go to school and become outgoing to make new friends. nnot all of it was the best, honestly, but i'm happy it helped me grow. i'm happy i feel better about where i am as a person. i'm happy i can trust a few people with the darkest parts of me. i'm happy i don't have to hide myself anymore. i'm happy i don't care about what others think. i'm happy i have the support i need to become a better me. i'm happy i have my family i got to choose even though i wish some people were still here .. but it's alright. that's how life works. they're doing okay without me around and without me as a burden; i get that. everything happens for a reason.
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Nonfiksiit's weird, letting out this story. but the only way i wanna do this is through writing, not speaking. so, just read on to learn why sometimes, emotions either make a monster of people or being out the best in them. i'm here for anyone who needs the...
