Everything At Once

Goodbye, I Guess.

well, i guess this is goodbye.

goodbye to the memories, the laughter and the happiness i felt when i was with you before it all fell to the ground.

i wrote about you, i talked about you and i made you seem like you were the one, but i guess you weren't. i guess it wasn't meant to be even though time and time again, you promised me "forever".
everything happens for a reason, though.

i might've been the one who ended us, but that wasn't because you weren't what i wanted. it happened because we started to crumble and when we finally fell, everything i felt fell too. i'm not happy that it happened, nor proud of the fact that i ended up breaking your heart. you were practically everything to me then and for that split second, i wanted to rewind time and start over. i could be mad about how things are working out right now, but i'm not. it'll pass even though it's irreversible, but i'll never forget what you taught me. you taught me that i need to be the one to believe in myself and be my #1 priority because not everyone i meet will do the same. you taught me that not everything is picture perfect and that people need to be fought for as long as they're fighting for you. you taught me that i'm enough and if someone can't handle it, they don't deserve me. i learned a lot from you, and i thank you for that. our time together has run out so it's time to go on another adventure, even if that's without you.

it's time to go down another path to meet new people, experience new things and maybe even find someone else to improve my wellbeing. i don't need a person to BE happy but it's nice to have people in your life that can make you smile when you feel like your life is falling apart. it's nice to meet people and go on new road trips. it's nice to know that you can befriend someone even though you might not all have the same interests or even the same backgrounds. it's nice to grow, and that's what we have to do as people. we'll grow apart, but it's okay. maybe we can be friends 10 or 15 years from now, but you never know. maybe things will work out for the better since we don't speak anymore. you can live without me, i know you can. you think you can't, but you'll survive. you're strong and things will be okay in time, no matter what may happen.

i appreciate the things you've done for the last few years, but this time apart is what we need to fix ourselves. you might find a better person anyways, and that's okay now. i wish you the best and i hope whoever gets to be yours can see that under all of that anger and sadness, there's a good person who wants to do right by others. i don't regret a thing, i just wish it could've ended better maybe. things will be okay, but this is goodbye. farewell, i hope you'll be happy soon.