Playing With Fire - COMPLETED

C10 - reflection

C10 REFLECTION

It was like I was looking through reflective sunglasses... I saw him but all he saw was himself

there we were back together. walking. as simple as it gets.
something obviously triggered it and we started talking about how he got through the death of his brother (idk I might change it) it amazed me how casually he brought it up. like it didn't have the emotional weight attached. I knew he was strong because no person is not brave by telling their story without shedding a tear or breaking down. that is bravery. I just wish I could do it myself. I struggle to just get a few words out when discussing my parents.

I woke up during the night and had a revelation.
Noah kept trying so hard to keep me on track and not fall off the edge and maybe that was because no one did that for him, he had to do it all by himself he wouldn't want someone to go through that same pain as he did. suddenly I felt horrible and maybe he hadn't changed as much as I thought he did. I wanted to be honest with him. it was only fair he told me about him I thought it was about right I told him about me. the uncensored version.

I got my response an hour later

I was sitting there. I dont really remember whether I was upset or not. but I was just sitting there talking with my brother and I got a text... from a guy. and yes I did like him and it made my heart swell.

it made me smile but it didn't make me flop onto my bed and think that he'd fallen in love with me. it did make me think I was wanted and that's all I've needed. I've remembered that message in doubt of everything I am cherished.