Safe Place ~ WayHaught

Always

(Okay so this chapter makes me think of that quote from Harry Potter...

"After all this time?"

"Always."

Okay! I'm done now.)

~Waverly POV~

It's been a little bit longer than 30 minutes since I said I would be at the hospital. Champ tried to talk to me again and it took me a while to shut him up. Ever since the breakup, I honestly can't stand to look at him anymore. He's just a reminder of everything that I did wrong, of everything that ruined my relationship with the love of my life.

Wynonna's been worrying about Nicole so much, I don't think she's noticed how awful I'm feeling. Most days I end up sleeping past noon because I was up all night, I've lost a dramatic amount of weight because I haven't been able to force myself to eat, and my hairs a mess cause I literally can't stand to look in the mirror. I deserve to feel like this though. I mean, sure, Nicole had her issues, but she was okay until I broke her heart. I did more than that, I broke her.

She's lying in that hospital bed because of my actions. I was selfish and mean. I remember telling Wynonna that I've been blaming myself, of course she told me this isn't my fault, but I don't believe her. Now, walking into this hospital to visit the girl that I still love with everything that I am, I feel sick.

"Hi," I realize I have no idea what room she's even in, so I called Wynonna. "What room?"

"518. . . She fell asleep, but please stay. She'll wake up soon."

"Alright." I sigh into the phone as I push the button in the elevator. "I'm on my way up."

I hang up the phone and hold my breath for a lot longer than I should. I don't want to see Nicole. I don't want to say or do something to put her through any more than what she's already dealing with. I've learned something about love since I met her, something that I'd never thought about before. Love is what I'm feeling right now. That I only want what's best for her, even if it isn't what's best for me, I will always put her first.

I know that the reason we broke up is because I wasn't. I never put her first. I realize how right she was when she told me that I didn't love her. She knew it before I did, so she let me go. Now, I plan on working every day until I'm ready, until she's ready, for me to go back to her.

I step into her room and my breath catches in my throat. She looks fine, physically, but even in her sleep, every muscle in her body is wound with anxiety. Like I said, physically she doesn't look any different, but her emotions are so intense that I can feel them radiating throughout the room.

I must have sniffled or gasped, because Wynonna has her arms wrapped around me. I'm trying not to cry, but I did this. I'm the one who made her feel like this. This is my fault.

"Wynonna," I pull back and walk over to sit by Nicole. "I did this."

"Waverly?" Nicole's voice is softer than normal. I feel the tears on my face. "Don't cry. I'm okay," she reaches up and wipes the tears from my cheeks. "And this is not your fault. You didn't do this to me."

"But you were okay. Before I just," I search for a strong enough word. "Abandoned you. I wasn't there for you. I didn't do anything to help you."

"Only cause I'm very good at convincing people I'm fine." She sighs and motions for me to crawl up beside her on the bed. It's small, but I'm okay with that. "I need to talk to you."

She notices that I'm trying not to get too close and pulls me into her side. I've missed lying with her like this, but I know it's not the same as before.

"Okay. I'm listening this time." I give in and wrap my arms around her. She has always been my home, it doesn't matter if we're together or not, and both of us know it. "I promise."

"I need you to know that I will always love you. From the moment I met you, Waverly Earp, I have been completely and totally in love with you, but you're right about one thing." I can feel her breathing getting shakier as she starts to cry. "You abandoned me. And I forgive you."

"What?" I want to move and look in her eyes, but I know that would just make her nervous.

"I forgive you for everything. And, although I'm not ready right now-I think we both have to work through some stuff first-I want to be with you again someday."

"I want that too." I turn so she can see my face. "Because I do. I really, really love you, Nicole Rayleigh Haught."

"Good," She chuckles through her tears. "Cause you're stuck with me."

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Hey!! I thought I'd write a sweet WayHaught friendship moment since I've been putting everyone through emotional torture with the lack of WayHaught haha

Also. . . Two updates in one day?? I feel good about myself now haha !!

I love you, Cheetahs!!

~Jordan

(Btw all the comments and positive feedback lately means so so so so much to me!!)