At Danielle-Dae Young House...
Sliding a pumpkin colored oversized long sleeve sweater on, I felt the left sleeve slid off my shoulder and exposed my bra strap and black tank top. It didn't matter. I fixed the sweater so it was covering my long black leggings. I just brushed my hair and left it down, letting it be. Not wanting to put on my contacts I just slid on my glasses and then slid on my fluffy house shoes, even though I had socks on. I grabbed my phone and walked downstairs, with Min-Min on my heels. I sighed as made it into the living room, and sat on the couch.
Turning on the TV, on the news channel I muted myself from everything. I hadn't slept since last night. It was evident from the bags under my eyes .. feeling drained, and scared. Constantly having flashes of my hands being clean to covered in blood. I couldn't really text anyone because my fingers trembled. And I couldn't really go to any room in my house without screaming or bursting into tears ... Because I'd see him standing there and grinning darkly at me. I didn't even answer any messages or calls without picturing them dead and covered in the deep scarlet substance.
JungKook had called me the most, leaving me constant voicemails, but I couldn't bring myself to answer them. I couldn't do it. Because when I tried I saw him on the ground next to me ... Throat ripped to shreds, deep gouging fang marks and covered in the dark crimson blood. Dead, eyes open and looking right at me, and he would mumble, "Your a monster." I would scream and cry, bursting into sobs and break down. Crumbling into a ball of nothing. I refused to eat this morning. I just couldn't do it. Being too disgusted with myself .. I was now limping because of the pain of my legs.
I knew they probably wouldn't heal all the way unless I ate. I didn't plan too. I pulled the blanket over my legs, and Min-Min got on the couch with me. Whimpering as she pawed at the blanket ... Wondering if I was okay. I petted her head and she curled up next to me, I smiled a bit as I leaned back on the couch. Wondering will it end? Probably never knowing I won't die unless something happens. I sighed and just looked up at the ceiling, trying not to think too much. Knowing how it'll end if I do. I know I should be going to practice, because last night I planned to hang out with the girls today but they had to work too.
Their manager called them last night and told them they had to work today, so they couldn't see me. Mr. Lee said I should come to practice today, because we need to work on some last minute vocals and then put it together for the track. But I couldn't bring myself to leave the house. I just couldn't do it ... I couldn't leave the house, too scared I'd have another crash. Well last time wasn't really crash ... But still I didn't want to risk it. I'm pretty sure Mr. Lee has called my sister, and alerted her of my not showing up. I always show up to practice even when I'm sick.
Though I couldn't leave the house because I'm too scared. This monster has done enough and probably doesn't deserve to be here. Why couldn't I of died that night? Why couldn't of my life ended? Why can't I do it now? I just want all this pain and suffering to end. Why can't I just end this myself? I want too but I can't bring myself to do it. I just can't deal with this anymore.
It sounds like there are multiple meanings
behind your words, so what is what?
If mysterious footprints are found, follow
My shadows are cornered
What is hidden behind the light?
Only you, who I cannot meet, knows my answer
Before it breaks off
I wanna know everything
It deepens the more time passes
Right now I am in between your past and future
Don’t leave me
I believe, I start running
No ending, you are my heartbeat
Even if I’m struck by rain
Even if I’m erased by darkness
I will definitely save you
You are not alone
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