Do you Love me? {BTS fanfic}

Chapter Fifty-Seven

          At Danielle-Dae Jeon House...

                            Later...

   "Jeongsan." I cooed, giggling at him as he's on his little play mat. Grabbing one of his toys I held it in front of him, and he giggled as he reached for it. "Your so cute, and you look so much like your father. That's for sure." I giggled. As I continued to play with him, Min-Min laid there close by, content with herself as she watched.  She's been protective of Jeongsan since I started to really show in my pregnancy, she never really left my side. Neither did JungKook ... But she'd get defensive around JungKook. Sometimes she'd bark at him, but once he gave her a treat she'd cool it. Sighing with a smile, I heard the door open, and Min-Min bolted like a bullet. Barking at whoever was at the door. "Woah hot shot it's just me, calm down there." A voice said in a calm tone.

    JungKook. Yay he's home, finally. Looking at the time ... I see it's 8:30pm, and he left at 6:15pm. I was wondering when he'd get home. Looking at the babbling Jeongsan, I stood up, and then carefully picked him up. "Appa's home, Appa's home Jeongsan." I cooed, and he giggled. Smiling I kissed his little cheek, and then we walked to the kitchen where we immediately saw JungKook. He turned and saw us, and smiled. "There's my beautiful wife and my handsome little son." JungKook said loving, he walked over to us and hugged us. "Hi baby." I giggled, he smiled and kissed my lips quickly. He then tickled Jeongsan and Jeongsan squealed with excitement.

   "What took you so long?" I asked, letting him take Jeongsan and walking to make our plates. "Oh I needed to talk to the guys about something, and let's just say Jin didn't react the way I was hoping he would." He said, and I nodded. Wait ... What'd he talk to them about? "What did you talk to them about?" I asked. Is it something he's talked to me about in the past? Damn I wish I could remember. I can't remember sh*t. I looked at JungKook, and he looked at me with a bit of a concerned look. "Can we talk about this later? Like after Jeongsan's been put to bed?" He asked, and I sighed nodding. Knowing I wouldn't be able to get him to talk to me about it till Jeongsan does go to bed.

    So I brought our made plates to the kitchen island, and JungKook hands me Jeongsan. I'm pretty much the only one who can handle Jeongsan well, while we're eating, and just makes it easier. "So how did work go? I've heard from Mr. Lee that your doing well." JungKook said, and I looked at him. "Yeah it went fine. Just need to work on a move I can't get right, but I'll get it down." I said. He gave me a mischievous slight grin, and I knew, he had an idea. "I can help you!" He said with excitement, and I gave him an 'Are you serious?' look. Its not that I don't like his offer , and the help, but he forgets I'm not gonna depend on him for everything.

    The pregnancy... Hell yes I'm gonna depend on him, he helped make the child, and is gonna be there. But my career? Not so much. I can handle my own on things, like my career, writing songs, the choreography for the video. "JungKook, baby, I um ... " I trailed off. Not knowing how to say it, but it seems he had different intentions. "Please jagiya! I can help, I wanna help you with this." JungKook pleaded, and I sat there looking at him. He was giving me a begging face and even went the long with too, with making it cute too. Damn it. Jeon JungKook! "Fine, but your lucky I love you." I said and he smiled, chuckling then went back to eating.

    So we continued talk, eat, talk and play with Jeongsan. Then I gave Jeongsan a bath, fed him, changed him, rocked him and now he's asleep. Walking out his his nursery quietly, I walk to me and JungKook's room, not saying a word. Walking in, I looked to the side and saw my husband dressed for bed laying on our bed. He was in a plain shirt shirt, and grey sweats. I went to our dresser, took down my hair and brushed it. "We need to talk." I said, and he nodded. Sitting up right I finished and sat next to him on the bed. I could see he's been fidgeting since he got home. Which usually means what he has to say is important, and it usually is.

  "So what is it? Spill it." I said, and then he reached for my hand. Holding it ever so gently, and caressing it. "You know we're suppose to make decisions together, right?" He asked. And I nodded, "Its part of being married " I said. Damn, was it really this serious? What could be so serious? "Kookie, is everything okay?" I asked. Putting my other hand on his arm, looking at him with concern. He looked up at me and looked upset, "I want you to turn me." He said. I didn't say anything. I just sat there, looking at him, feeling a cold shudder go down my back. "What?" I asked.

    What! Turn him?! Is he joking?! What the hell! What the f**k is he thinking! Did something crawl in his head, and bite him? Making him ask such a crazy question?! T-Turn him? Is he serious? Please tell me this is a joke. Lord tell me he's joking, that he's playing a joke on me, that he's just trying to get a rise out of me. Someone please shoot me now. I immediately stood up, feeling tears swell in my eyes, and gritting my teeth. Trying not to yell knowing that our child is asleep in the other room. I'm trying not to explode on my husband ... Who knows what it was like for me, after I forcely turned into a supernatural, against my will.

   "Jeon JungKook! Why would you ask such a thing? You know what I went through, why would you ask me to do this?" I almost yelled. He got up, and walked over to me. Trying to pull me in a hug and explain, but I pushed him away. "JungKook answer me. Now." I growled, and he looked at me. "Look I know it was hard for you. And that you said you'd never do that, but I have reasons. So please let me explain." He said, slowly approaching me to keep me calm. I nodded, trying not to cry more than I already was, and let him hold my hands. "In our vows, I promised you something, we promised each other. That we would protect each other and keep each other from harm." He continued, and I listened.

   "And you've been getting hurt a lot lately. I've been feeling guilty, that I haven't been doing my job, I haven't been a great husband. So it had me thinking ... What if something happened to you and Jeongsan? What if I wasn't there to protect you two, and you two got killed? I wouldn't forgive myself." He explained, and went on. "I wouldn't be myself without you. You've turned my whole world upside down, and now that we have Jeongsan, I've been thinking more clearly. You'll still be young and never die, you'll watch me grow old and then one day I won't be here anymore."

    I felt more tears running down my cheeks, and I saw him about to burst into tears as well. The moment just felt so intense ... But he was right. I won't age, he will, and one day he won't be here anymore. I'll be alone and by myself. I totally forgot about it. But a small part in me knew, and just wanted to forget, so I didn't have to worry. Though I do worry. Because I've found the one person aside family, that loves me and wants to spend forever with me. But what will forever be ... Without him? I'll be spending the rest of eternity alone ... Even though we always say we'll be together for eternity.

    "We always say that we want to spend the rest of eternity with each other, but I won't be here for eternity. And when I die ... I'll be all alone, because your immortal and don't die unless someone kills you with the weapons that can kill you. I won't always be around, and it worries me, I know it worries you too." He said, and I soon broke down. He caught me in his arms, letting me cry into his shoulder. He wrapped me in a strong hug as he rubbed my back too, just letting me let out all that I've been feeling. I didn't realize how much I had been keeping bottled up ... I guess it started when we got married, and things just kept getting buried deep down.

    "Danielle, you know I love you more than anything, asides our son who you've blessed me with. But ... I can't keep going on living in guilt, of not being able to keep you and Jeongsan safe. Would you at least consider it please?" JungKook said again, and I tried not to sniffle. But I knew in my heart ... There was no reason to refuse, I couldn't even think of any reason to refuse. Well one ... I will hate the hate I'll be draining my husband of his humanity, and I'll have to remember that for as long as I live. 
But .. I've been thinking the same thing.

   My fears are the same as his. What if something happens to him and Jeongsan? What if they both end up being killed, and I'm not there to protect them? I wouldn't forgive myself either. There wouldn't be anything to live for, and I wouldn't want to be here anymore. I love Jenni. But I don't her, my parents, the girls, my girls or the guys would be able to stop me. So I guess there's only one thing to do ...

"I'll do it. I'll turn you into a vampire."