Do you Love me? {BTS fanfic}

Chapter Twenty-Nine

         At Asian Artist Award Show...

After trying to pull Jenni back, I didn't realize how much time had passed. Because when the show was almost about to start, in came the boys ... Right on schedule. I sighed, and just sat with Jenni. The girls and Jenni seemed to make me feel better, but I missed my girls, from my band. I wish they were here ... And I wish I could go see Sid who God's knows may be sitting in the hospital about to deliver her first baby. And I promised her I'd try to be there for her. She had deemed me godmother ... And here I am probably missing my godchild's birth.

I'll have to call her later and see how she's doing. Me and the girls never even got to go to this award show together. It was around the corner, but then we had to disband. I sat in my chair and pouted, Jenni noticed my upsetness and turned her full attention to me. "What's wrong? Is it JungKook?" She asked. Grabbing my left hand, and holding it in her hands. I smiled at her for being sweet. "It's nothing Jen, and no he's not the reason. I ... I just miss my friends. We never even got to come to this together, and who knows I'm probably missing Sydney give birth right now." I said sadly.

"Oh, Dani, I know you miss them. And I'm sure they miss you too, and performing together as much as you do. But you have to be happy for them and do the things they miss for them, you make them proud that your still continuing your career today." She continued with a smile. "And if Sydney was in labor I'm sure she would of called, or had her husband call. But if she is then you have to hope for the best that she and the baby make it okay. And remember you can call her later too." Jenni said. She smiled that gummy smile and I smiled back.

With these types of moments, I love my sister for being who she is. Because she inspires me everyday with how she does the things she does. And how she lives her life. In these times I'm glad I have her as my sister because I wouldn't want anyone else as my sister other than her. "Thanks Jen your always so helpful." I said smiling. She nodded, and smile right back at me. So we continued into a conversation when the award show began to start. First they called the award winners for the new bands, and they performed.

Then it wasn't too long till BTS got called up for best boy band of the year that was rising high with fame. They got the award, then gave it to their manager who got off the stage then headed to their table while BTS was going to perform.

"Fall." "Everything." "Fall." "Everything."

I knew this song.. like the back of my own hand. It's I Need U. It wasn't bad, though it kinda talked about how they needed a girl who was being terrible I guess? I wasn't very sure what it was about, I knew before but I forgot ... But I'm pretty sure they were singing it because I may be the terrible girl since I lied to them this entire time. I mean how could they not tell see the signs? I got sick while eating the human food without any blood, I just picked at it, I'm 3 times stronger than all of them combined, and I'm paler then their palest band member. So how could they not see it?

Just like I couldn't see that JungKook was my soulmate ... And now I have to live without one. Because he doesn't accept me. But who would anyways? I'm not what someone would want, and I'm sure they wouldn't want me after that find out what really happened that night. And what I did to myself that day. So ... Yeah I was stupid to believe that someone actually may want me. And look where it got me? Hurt and alone. But I have Jenni and my friends, and my career that I can focus on. Just do what Jenni says ... Focus on the more important things in life.

Though I kept thinking, I couldn't keep my eyes off of how JungKook moved. How his voice mixed and stood out so well with the guys.

"I need you girl Why am I in love alone, why am I hurting alone I need you girl Why do I keep needing you when I know I'll get hurt?"