Do you Love me? {BTS fanfic}

Chapter Twenty-Seven

     At BigHit Entertainment company...

             A month and a week later...

"You know, I wish you would stop throwing everything in a skirt! And stop playing with my feelings." I yelled, my voice dripping with venom. He stood there, stunned, by my words. I could of said worse, if I wanted to, but the bitter side of me was telling me no for once."You know what, your just the Playboy that Sid said you are. Yet everyone sees you as the perfect cute little maknae, but I'm not stupid like everyone else is. I see you for what you really are." I growled with my anger seething. At this moment, I didn't care whether if my growl scared him.

I stood my ground, anger clearly evident in my voice and body language. I would say he could see it in my eyes ... But I was wearing my dark brown colored eye contacts. I was an idiot for falling for his trick. I should of been smarter, not taken Jenni's advice and just listened to myself. I knew that no guy would fall for me or love me, and here I thought that the golden maknae Jeon JungKook actually loved me. Because during the time we worked together, things had went well. The videos for both songs came out great!

The two songs were 1st and 2nd on today's most listened to, and it didn't take too long till they reached about a billion views. My fans and their fans were going crazy, and wanted to see us perform the songs together live. So our managers have been working out our schedules to see if we can. I had been so excited because I had started to get along so well with the guys. Hanging out with them was so much fun, along with getting to know them all too. During that time too ... Me and JungKook had gotten closer. We hadn't kissed, but we hung out so much together that we were almost inseparable.

But I should of known better when he had gathered the courage and asked me out. Yes, also that day I had finally found out that he was my suppose to be soulmate and that I had developed feelings for him. Though, that night I had gone to meet him at the restaurant where I had dinner with him and the guys. As soon as I had walked in, and about to find out what table he was at ... I found him in a hall area with a girl I recognized immediately. With that short black hair bob cut, skinny stick body, and almost skimpy dress. It was IU. Me and her weren't on the best of terms since I had told her off backstage at an awards ceremony because she was dissing my friends who I was in a band with at the time.

I saw everything. She had kissed him, and that lying dog had the guts to actually kiss her back when he knew he was on a date with me. Yes ... I was heartbroken and also mad. I actually wanted to rip his throat out at that moment. But I didn't, no matter how badly the angry vampire in me wanted too. So I walked out and drove back home, when I got home I texted JungKook saying I had to make a raincheck because I had gotten sick with a bad stomach bug. He had said he'd come and care for me, but I texted back and said it'd be best he shouldn't because I didn't want him sick. Though I had lied.

He had texted back and said okay, and that he hoped I got better soon so that maybe we could reschedule. But there was no way in hell that I was gonna let that little two-timing lying player hurt me again. I knew I should of listened to Sydney in the first place. Kept my walls up, not let him in, and just keep things professional. But no .. I had to listen to Jenni for once, and try to let go of the past. But look where it got me! Hurt and now I'm worse. Dr. Jing says it's probably best that this be the last time I do something with the guys, because my stress levels were up too high again. But she doesn't know what happened.

So I hadn't talked to the guys in a week, I tried to busy myself with this month shopping. Yes it was now December so I had to do shopping. But today, I had gotten a call from JungKook to meet him here so we could talk. But I didn't want to talk. I had to get ready for tonight, tonight was the night of the Asian Artist Award Show. I had been nominated as best soloist of the year and I was up against IU and a few others. But I figured it'd be talk to him now, or have him try to talk to me later at the show and then get mad and embarrass myself in front of a lot of people. So I went with talk to him now.

Shocked and lost for words. Debating with himself whether or not to say anything back, to stop my malice words against him. But finally content with my rage-on moment I turn back, bag on my shoulder and as I was about to walk away ...

"Just leave me the hell alone Jeon Jungkook."

Walking off, I'm suddenly grabbed and spun around to face the ignorant motherf-ing inconsiderate a**hole. I glared daggers right at him and he sure needs to hope I don't kill him right here right now. Because he was pissing me off as it was. Telling me lies. When I had first gotten in here, he had asked why I haven't been answering any of his messages or calls. I said I had been busy. He had said that probably wasn't the reason, and asked why I seemed so pissed. He asked what had he done, and I had asked did he really not know?

I said I saw everything. He was confused, and I said I had seen him kiss IU at the restaurant. He then he tried to explain that it wasn't what it looked like. Apparently they had dated in the past, and when they broke it off things weren't left on the best of terms. So she had come to meet him quickly and apologize, wanting for things to go back to normal. Before they dated. When they were just friends and happy, he had agreed that's what he wanted. But she had kissed him as goodbye to end things well, and he had of course kissed back. But I didn't know what to believe. I was too pissed at the time to think.

"Stop, just stop and listen to me." He pleaded.

Fighting back the tears best I could, I know I couldn't watch the words I was about to say.

"Was it real? Was it all real? Was the times we hung out, when we laughed, told each other secrets, and all those sweet moments that I considered for a minute to be romantic real?" I asked. I could hear my voice cracking, it was evident that I was close to tears.

He held me in his arms. Pulling me tightly against his chest, closing any space there was between us.
I felt my tears starting to fall and I couldn't fight them back anymore. Concerned filled his eyes. But I knew I had to know what his real feelings we're, even if he didn't feel the same ... I knew I'd just stay away. But I had to know. Because if I was left questioning then I'd be more crushed than I maybe if he tells me he doesn't feel the same. Yes I'd be crushed, but at least I know that I then wouldn't have to worry anymore.

"Do you love me? " I asked.

Tears ready to spill, and I bit the inside of my lip. Just ready to hear it. But I could clearly see it in his eyes ... He didn't feel the same, and I knew I was way in over my head. "Of course ... How could i forget? Who could ever love a monster like me? I shouldn't of been so stupid." I told myself as he was right there. "What do you mean monster? Danie-" I cut him off by pushing him back from me. "JungKook, I don't think you realize it. But you've been hanging out with a vampire this entire time, and you never even noticed the signs." I said as I exposed my fangs while talking.

He looked scared, and I saw it. He was afraid of me ... He saw the real monster of me. I felt my tears falling, and my heart ached as if it had been split in two. "Just never talk to me again, it'd be better if you didn't. Have a nice life without me." I said as I cried. My voice full of pain and it was cracking, I knew I had to get out of here. So I ran out and made it down the elevator. As I made it down and through the lobby, I saw next to my car ... The BTS limo. There stood the guys ... Probably waiting on JungKook.

They saw me and smiled, but then saw my tears and immediately got concerned. I hissed as I exposed my fangs and they jumped back, I got in my car and drove back home. Where I would cry my heart out but also have to get ready for the show.