Misted Thoughts

Purple Disco Lights

If someone asks me today
I usually blurt out that I don't know what I was thinking
I don't keep track of everything I think
But I do think about us dancing
Under purple disco lights
With your hand intertwined in mine
And the other pulling my waist close enough
To stagger my breath
With every step we take
I click sometimes without beats with songs playing just in my head
Calling out your name is for my confidence
Not abuse.
I never meant to
But I'm done apologizing
Whatever.

I'll always be proud of you
More proud than I would have been months ago.
Did I mistake us for love? Did you?
I hope not.
I really really hope not.

"Like two distant lovers"
Remember?
I do think they are.
I did not completely keep it under my knowledge
And some parts of you were figment of my imagination.
More of the mind than of the reality
I did create pretty pictures
I still do sometimes.

I only clutch onto pillows when I cry about my own sensitivities
But they've lost their touch
And I've lost my schizophrenia
He doesn't talk to me anymore
The only one who cares is I.

Tight hugs from my side are meant for different people now
And so are yours
Although they happen in the same places
Coming from the heart
And burying themselves in messy hair
Inside the four walls of the place I never thought
Would become difficult to exist in, but only sometimes.
Other times, I like the challenges.

I don't mind dancing alone you know
But if you ever have the time
Come over.
I promise it will be worth it.
Worth you.
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Lyrics above are of the song Somebody Else by The 1975. And i love it. And listen to it and dance. I don't care who you dance with, dance with yourself or dance with somebody you love. Just dance and spread love. Peace <3