sᴛᴏᴋᴇʟᴇʏ, ᴍʏ ᴛʀᴜᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇ

Chapter 35: Lost Without You

*Stokeley's POV*

I had "Lost Without You" by Robin Thicke on repeat. I can relate to that song on so many levels. Without Sasha I just feel lost. She's like my other half and I couldn't lose her.

Hearing her say those words tore my heart apart. I got home and Jahseh gave me this big lecture. He gave me words like "I told you" and "Vro I'm sorry it had to be like this". He tried the best of his ability to make me feel better, but it just didn't work.

I never really cared and loved any girl like Sasha. She bought out my heart. She showed me what true love was about.

I sat on the side of the road blasting the same song. I can't deny. A nigga was in his feelings. I felt played. I felt weak.

All of a sudden my music stopped because I received a call. It was Chris.

Me: Hello

Chris: Aye I heard what you did and what happened. I just got some words for you son. Don't ever hurt my lil sister like that. I'm just glad you not like Calvin cause I would've had to fuck another nigga up.

Me: I get it.

Chris: Ok nah nigga I ain't done. If another situation like this pop up, I swear on my life you ain't gone like me anymore. Lemme ask you a question. You really love my sister or you just playing her for pussy? Cause right after she told you she was pregnant you cheated.

Me: It ain't even like that, I love yo sister man. I never meant to hurt her. I wanted to be her happiness, but I guess I failed at doing that:

Chris: Damn you a real sensitive nigga. Listen son, I'll die behind my blood. Imma let you off the hook with this one warning. Stay cool nigga. Catch ya later.

Me: You too.

I thought he was calling me talking about he was gonna beat my ass. I would've understood if he did. I deserve it after all the shit I did.

I can't help myself. It's hard when you hurt someone you love. I miss her smile, touch, voice, her everything.

I was thinking about drinking some Hennessy to drown out my sorrows, but that's what got me in this situation to begin with. I'll never quit on my Hennessy, but I don't need it right now.

*Sasha's POV*

That whole night when I told him, I cried. My heart hurt so bad. I needed someone to confide in. Lately Miles and I have been talking a lot. I let him know that I wanna try things with him. We haven't made things official yet. I think he's waiting on the right time to ask me.

I've been talking to him about how things have been going lately with me. He understands me and listens to me with everything that I'm going through.

I can't front like I'm actually doing okay. Deep down I'm actually suffering. I can only imagine how he's feeling right now. It's like losing a best friend.

I've been eating all my pain away. I've been stress eating so much. I'm a month and a few weeks pregnant now  and I can feel pain in my stomach every time that I stuff my mouth with. Maybe my body is telling me something.Food makes everything feel better for me. I can zone everything out and forget about everything for a second while eating.

I was losing weight, but for the past week I've been putting on some pounds.

"Damn you fat ass." I heard a voice say.

I looked up and it was Natalie. I gave her one of my most sincere looks ever.

"Awwww my baby." She said.

She ran up to me and hugged for a long time.

"I know this is short notice. I wanted to just surprise you and pop out of nowhere."

"You're right on time. I need you right now."

We let go of the hug and our conversation started getting serious.

"So this is what's best for you Sasha? You alright?"

"Yeah I'm fine Natty."

"yEaH iM fInE nAtTy. Lies. I've been knowing you forever, don't tell me you find when you know damn well you not. I'm here for you forever and always. I'm your best friend like what the hell?"

"Okay I'm not. Fuck."

"Babe that's all you had to say. You're not a good liar." She said laughing.

My mood instantly began to change. I love her so much.