Forever Yours

Alpha Noah

Amerie

"My son, where is my son?"  Amidst my pacing back and forth a very loud worried Alpha yelled until his eyes met mines.

Frantically walking in towards me, "You."  He snarled, "What the hell did you do to my son?"

His foot steps and loud voice was followed by some of Seff's family and friends all angry at me.

"Alpha," I bowed showing him respect, "There was an accident and..."

Just then the pack doctor entered the room.  The Alpha and the others had pushed me aside not caring if I had fallen, "Samuel, where is my son Samuel?"

"He's in surgery right now so please have a seat."

Suddenly my cheeks had whipped to the side as a hand made in contact.  His hand, Alpha Noah's hand.  "I knew bringing you onto my land was a bad idea.  You, because of you my son has been seriously injured.  If any thing happens to him, your better wish you were six feet under because I would do more then just have you killed."  He growled.

His sister Hazel who I have only seen from afar also had slapped me, "My brother.  You not only took my brother away from me, his family, his friends but now his life."  She sobbed.

Guilt.  That is what I am feeling right now.  It is guilt.  Guilty for a lot of reasons.  One is because he spends more time with me than his pack.  I knew this and yet I did nothing to stop him.  I didn't mean for anything of this to happen.  And another because I came back here when I should've stayed away.

Maybe I should have left him at the mountain.  Or at least just had dropped him home then maybe he would be happy with his family instead of being here in the pack infirmary.

Sitting her away from his family and friends who only whispered among themselves that I will be their downfall.

I was used to it.  What else is new.  After all throughout my entire life all I have received were insults, their abuse, and their glares.

You'd think I would have developed a tough skin but it still hurts.  Always, I had always wanted to be accepted but because of what I am I know now I could never be more that what they are to them a monster, a demon in their eyes.

"Seff, why didn't you leave when I had ask you too."  I whispered to myself hoping he would hear me but I know that wouldn't happened.  "Please don't take him away.  If you wish it, I'll leave him alone if you bring him back to me."  I had silently prayed hoping the fate will have a change of plans.

Why must they do this to me?  Have I done something wrong.  Am I cursed to walk this world alone.  Is this my punishment for being born.  Tears had escaped my eyes, tears I tried to hold back. 

Hours later their pack doctor entered the room causing us to rise to our feet, "The surgery was a success, so he is sleeping right now but should waken soon."  He smiled.

Relief shown on my face.  He's okay, he's okay.  I chanted.  He will be alright.

After this scare I knew I had to do something so this would never happened again.  Twice I had failed, twice I had lost, twice....not this time.  This time will be different.

"Can we see him?"  I asked impatiently.

The doctor nodded, "One at a time and families first."

Walking towards his room, "And where do you think you're going?"  Alpha Noah glared pulling me aside.

"To see him of course."

"Didn't you hear what the doctor said, families first.  As I recall you are not his family."  True but I am his mate.

"But I am his mate."  I spoke honestly.

"His mate! Ha! Don't make me laugh.  You are nothing more the a thing of the past.  You had a mate, and you killed both of them.  I will be damn if you kill my son too."

"Okay first of all I didn't kill them."

"Oh really."  He interrupted, "Tell me if you weren't with your previous mate would they still be alive."

I gasped at his reply.  Maybe he is right.  Maybe being with me is a curse itself. 

No don't listen to him.  Lau intervene my thoughts.  He is our mate.  I want our mate.

Lau was getting frustrated.

"You may be an Alpha here but you and I both know what I am capable of."  I gave a silent glare.

"Do not threaten me, he is my son and right now I want you to leave my lands."

He can't do that can he?  "But..."

"No, buts because of you my son ended up here.  Just be thankful he is alive.  You on the other hand I want you to go far away.  Please leave my son, let him live and enjoy his life without you."

My eyes once again teared.  In all my years of watching him grow, I had protected him and his pack and now it's like everything is meaningless.  I thought I would have a few more years before I get to say good bye for good.

"At least let me see him one last time, let me say my good bye." 

Walking pass him, he grabbed my hand harshly, "I will not allow you to go near my son again nor hurt him.  Do as I say and just go." 

I hesitated looking at Seff's room. 

Lau wanted to see him one more time.  "Take good care of him."

Turning in the opposite direction I looked back, tears had spilled from my eyes, the memories, his laughter, his smile, his scent, flashed through my mind, and with one last whisper, "Good Bye Seff."