Our Own World

Chapter Twenty-One - What am I doing?

Ace and I sat in the room together at the hospital later that night as we waited for his mum and the doctors to come back. We sat there quietly.

"I wonder what they're talking about." He said.

"It's been a while now," I remarked. "Maybe I should go see what they're up to." I said hesitantly.

"No." He said. "Stay here, with me."

I looked over at him and his eyes looked directly into mine. I smiled slightly and I could tell what he was thinking.

"What if, they tell us you're going to die soon?" I said holding in the tears.

Too scared to say anything else I jumped off the bed and sat in the chair. I closed my eyes and I tried not to think about it.

"Don't think about it." He said, as if he knew I was overthinking. "It's going to be all right."

About 3 hours later, he woke me up.

"I have some bad news." He says. I'm scared. As the words come out of his mouth I could not speak, "The cancer has gotten worse... I have now only 20 percent chance of survival. And even if I do survive, there's a chance it could come back again." I start to cry. All I want to do I go home and cry.

Why is this happening to him? I asked God.

"Oh. I-I can't believe it." I said waking myself up and giving myself a reality check. I'm supposed to be here, not stuck in my angry thoughts towards God. "I thought you might actually get better." I said.

"I'm so sorry." He said.

After we got home, I was trying to keep the tears from flowing down my cheeks. And I did until half way during our game pf Mario Kart, I couldn't take it anymore. I ran up to my room and Ace comforted me. I always love it when he knows exactly when to hug me.

"Hey Camilla, everything's going to be all right. We'll be okay. And even if I don't make it, I know you'll be okay."

I sniffled as my eyes drooped. "Ace? Can you stay here for a little bit?"

"Of course Cam,"

"I might fall asleep, just a warning." I laughed.

"It's okay; you look cute when you sleep." He chuckled while holding my close. I blushed.

"And how would you know again?" I joked.

"You're funny Cam,"

"I know," I whispered and laughed. He just laughed right back as he held me in his arms close to his chest. I felt heat radiating from his body. We were always this close and I don't see anything wrong with it. As long as we're keeping it PG we're okay.

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Things have been hard since the news and I can't help but think he might die. I want to tell him how much he means to me, I'm not sure how. Ace asked me today if I could sing him Reckless Love by Cory Asbury. After he said he had something for me; it was a bouquet of flowers, sunflowers to be specific.

"What?" I exhaled. "What is this?" I asked. I thought I heard my door open, but I couldn't say for sure. I felt like someone was watching us, but it wasn't going to ruin the moment.

"It's for you." He said moving the bouquet towards me.

"But why," I asked. "Why would you give me this? I didn't do anything."

"Your voice is beautiful." He said leaning in. Our lips met, and within moments, we were on the bed making out. Just then, someone coughed. I knew someone was in here.