With Me

Chapter 21 Jordan

It's been a couple of days since the big fight. I have a broken nose and a black eye. I have a bruised side where my older brother kicked me when I was down. I haven't heard from him since. Do I want too, NO? My twin, Joe hasn't heard from him yet. He has disappeared from the face of the earth. All I hope is that he hasn't done anything stupid. I know that not him, he would never do anything like that. New on the other hand I would. I would go straight to the bottle and drink my life away and would work out excessively too. I am sat in my office staring into space not really working just thinking. I am somewhere between angry, upset and guilty. I am guilty because I have upset my brother. I am angry at him because I look a mess as if I have been in a boxing round. I am upset because Ava is upset as she thinks its all her fault we are not talking. I hate my brother, I disown my brother. Joe is my only brother. But he is stuck between the two of us. He's my twin so he should stand by me. I start thinking back to our childhood. I think I was about 7 when he helped me from a couple of older kids from our neighborhood. 

'Hey I thought we told you, you can't play here squirt'
'I'm 7'
'Too young, too small, too chubby'
'Hey, I can play here. I'm allowed to be here'
'Little squirt thinks he can play here'.
They surround me, three of them against one of me. I was ready to fight them. I had enough of them teasing me. They laughed as they were bigger than me. They were in the grade above Jon. I wanted to play basketball with the older kids, not them. The next thing I knew I was on the floor getting a kicking. Until big bro came to the rescue.
'Hey leave my brother alone you bullies. Pick on someone you're own size for once you cowards'. They ran off because the ones I wanted to play with came over. They knew my sister, Tiffany and were her age. One of them helped me up with Jon.
'You alright little J'
'I'm not little' I mumble. 

The funny thing I was shorter than Jon until I hit 14. Then I grew and now I am taller at 6'1 to his 5'11. He has helped me a lot. But I also helped him too especially when he was too scared to tell anyone he was gay. I placed my hands on my face and then through my hair. I screamed and pushed everything off my desk. I didn't realise I just scared Ava with my actions as she came running in. She stood at the doorway looking at me while I stood up with my hands on the desk. I got so much tension in my arms and hands on the desk that my biceps were bulging. Ava stood there looking scared. I looked up, my face changed from angry to worried as I saw her. 

"I am so sorry" I replied walking around my desk towards her. 

"Don't apologize. Are you alright? You're the one who lost a brother through a fight".

" I am fine. I'm worried about you and little peanut. I still got Joe". 

"We are fine. I am worried about you. The last couple of days you have been angry. This room looks a mess. You always have it in order".

I smile at her and I calm down a bit. Ava standing there in sweatpants and a t-shirt. Her t-shirt shows a small baby bump. 

" You're showing already" as I wrap my arms around her for a hug. 

"Yeah, I am. I think the doctor got the dates wrong. Either that or it's a big baby or its twins". When she said the last comment I fainted. I woke up on the floor with Ava next to me. " I am sorry J. I couldn't help it. However, it did make you forget about the problems with Jon". I playfully whack her arm as I got up. 

"You're mean". I got up from the floor and pulled her up too. "Don't kid like that again I can't take it".

She laughed at me. I pull her against me and I kiss her until she stops laughing at me. Ava does stop laughing only to press herself up against my stomach. I want her, I want her now on this floor if she isn't careful and stops moaning like that. I start to forget my brother problem as I pull off her t-shirt while still kissing passionately. She removes my t-shirt. She runs her hands over my muscles as she does that I groan. I kissed her deeper until she moans. 

"We could do it here on the desk or we can take it to the bedroom".

"How much appealing it to have sex on your desk. I think the bedroom would be more comfortable to make love". She grabbed my hands and led me to my room. After 3 rounds that totally made me forget about my older brother. WHO??