With Me

Chapter 43 Ava

I went to the hospital the next morning leaving enough time for Jordan to rest. He was exhausted when I left yesterday. I am happy he remembered me but he couldn't remember Jon his older brother. I know that is because of what happened before the accident and not because of the lost traumatic amnesia. As I sat there waiting for him to wake up, I was reading the latest novel. I do hope that we would talk about what he said yesterday about me being his wife soon. But it's not the right time at the moment not with him laying in the hospital still recovering some serious injuries. But because he saved my life I want to be the one to ask him. Not the other way around. 

I must have fallen asleep while reading the book as I felt a hand on my shoulder. As I opened my eyes, a nurse was standing in front of me. 

"Hey, are you awake. You might as well go and get some food as he needs to go for a scan on his head injury. We should have news in his head injury and be able to remove the drip".

" I don't want to go" replies a voice from the bed, a sleepy one at that. "I feel fine". 

" You need a scan," says the nurse. 

"No I don't," he says "I want to go home". 

I look over at my boyfriend who was now awake too. He was laying back down on his back. They have been allowing him to sit up but with the halo on, he can't sit like it for long. It's heavy and makes his neck and shoulders hurt. Even though he is up against the pillows. 

" But Jordan you have a long way to go before you can go home". 

"But I want to. I can't stay in hospital over Christmas". 

" But Jordan it's not Christmas anymore. It's January 31st. You have been in a coma for about four weeks while in hospital. Have been awake for five days now. Our twins were born on January 26th. A lot has happened". 

We can hear him trying to think. 

"OK". He closes his eyes and you can see a tear. " I wanna go home". 

"Soon". 

" I don't want to be here". 

"I know it can be scary and even lonely here," I say. I sound like his mom. "Hey, I will be back after your scan. I will also see if I can get your family to come more often if you are feeling lonely".

" Thank you" now he sounds very anxious and scared. 

"Would you like everything from home to cheer up your room a bit"? He nods. I think he's forgotten what he has at home. I kiss him on the forehead before I go. " See you in a bit". 

He grabs me with his right hand. "Don't go, please". 

" You have a scan to go to. I will be back". He still is holding onto my arm. "Later we need to talk about what you said yesterday?".

" What was that?". He doesn't remember. Maybe that's a good thing. We are ready for the next step but not until he recovers fully.

"It doesn't matter for now". 

" What did I say? I don't remember". 

"We will talk later. Be good for your scan. I will be back later". I break easily away from his grip. He looks at me with sad eyes. 

"Don't go. Don't leave me". 

" Hey, I'm leaving you with your nurse". 

"But I want you". 

" I'm sorry Jordan but you have to go and have your scan. I will be back. I promise. OK".

I wave at him from the door as I go. I feel mean but I can't go with him. I pick up my phone and send messages to his family about visits. I even texted Jon maybe he could go in with Tiffany or Joe. I hope that wouldn't be a problem. I hope.