With Me

Chapter 36

I got taken back to my room for tests. My doctor arrived and checked my vitals and checked the babies heartbeats too mainly they didn't think I was in labor yet. That was the next thing they checked. I don't want to be here. I need to be with my boyfriend. He is very poorly. My mom soon arrived.

"The pain is due to stress. You are not yet in labor. But there are signs that are getting you ready. What you were experiencing were Braxton hicks contractions. With the added stress you need to be careful".

" But my boyfriend".

"You need to think of your health and the health of your unborn children".

" But".

"You need to rest".

" Which means bed rest Ava. No moving" my mom tells me.

"Any more stress will affect your unborn children. They are not ready to appear yet. So we will need to keep an eye on them".

" But my boyfriend is very poorly and still critical," I say with tears in my eyes " I need to be there. If he doesn't make it I don't know what I would do".

"Ava, I have an idea" replies Joe.

"No buts" replied my mom "What's your idea, Joe?".

" I am going to set up a webcam in J's room if I am allowed too".

"Wonderful idea".

" I just need to talk to J's doctors first though. As he is still not stable as they would like". He comes over to me. "Ava, I'm going to go and see my brother for a while if that is OK".

" Joe, go he's your twin brother".

"See you soon Ava" he kisses me on the cheek "Please look after my nephew and niece".

" A boy and a girl Ava" replied my mom very excitedly.

"Yes but not sure on names yet. Maybe Sophia or Kelsey for a girl. And Christian or Jacob for a boy".

" I like Sophia and Christian but it's not up to me" my mom replies.

"That's what Jordan wanted," I said.

"But keep them in the pipeline for when they arrive".

" I might call them that. They go well with his surname".

"Think about it. Don't rush into naming them".

" OK, mom".

"Get some sleep okay". I nod and close my eyes. I am not going to rush into it. I fall asleep as there was nothing else to do.

Dream one
I was wearing black. Why was I wearing black? I was in our bedroom crying. But I wasn't the only one crying as there were two cribs in the corner. Two little babies were crying.
Joe comes into the room with Jon and Tiffany. All three were crying. What's going on?
" He wouldn't want you to be up here all alone and crying. He would want you to live your live to the fullest".
Wait he's gone. My boyfriend, Jordan isn't here anymore. He died...
That's when it changed into another dream or nightmare.

Dream two
I hear what is church bells then I hear the wedding match music. I am confused about why I am standing in the room wearing a white dress. Wait a minute I'm getting married but to who. My dad takes my arm and walks me down the aisle towards the priest. There were three guys in front of me. I noticed Joe is looking at me and so was Jon next to him. The person next to Jon doesn't turn around until I get there. The moment I get there upfront with them the person turns around and it's Jordan. He had the biggest grin on his face. Boy did he look sharp in his tux.

Dream three
It's almost real. I was standing in the middle of some yard when two toddlers came running over to me. One boy and a girl. There were one of each.
" Mommy," said this brown-haired girl wrapping her little arms around my leg. I pick up my little girl. She squeals with delight as I pick her up. The little boy was still down by my legs. Then Jordan appears next to me. He looks older,
"How is everyone doing?".
" Daddy" the toddler on the ground squeals reaching his arms out to him.
"Hey, Christian"  he reaches out to pick him up. Once he has him in his arms, he hugs me. "How is my wife to be feeling? Hey, expectant mother". I look down at myself and there was a baby bump. He kisses me...

I don't know how long I was asleep for but I felt someone lightly tap me.

" Ava, wake up". Again they tap me on the arm. I slowly open my eyes again. There was my nurse. "I need to check your vitals and check up on the babies". I slowly focus as I have been asleep. I nod and move to get myself more comfortable. I noticed a wheelchair near the door but didn't say anything but my nurse worked out what I was thinking. " If everything is OK we will allow you some time to see your boyfriend. But with me there OK".

I nod again. I don't speak just in case I burst into tears. Everything with the accident, Jordan even Jon and my outburst towards him. I am a little emotional but I don't want to wreck my chances of seeing my boyfriend. So I will keep quiet. When all was good they allowed me to go and see Jordan for about ten minutes. But that's better than nothing. 

I was soon next to his bedside. Nothing has changed since the last time I was here. The machines were helping him to heal and to stay alive. He has to be ok. I can't live without him. Our children need their father. I hold his hand but I can't bring myself to look up at his face. Especially with the halo around his head. I want to see him like he was before the accident. But he saved my and our children lives but at a price of him laying here in hospital, barely living. A tear forms in my eye.

"Please don't leave me" I say into his hand "I'm going to call them Sophia and
Christian but you need to wake up. You can't leave me alone"....