With Me

Chapter 14 Ava

I spent the whole flight worrying about what I was going to tell them. What was I going to say to the dad? What was I going to say to Jon? Hey, I can't be a surrogate mother for your baby because I am carrying your brother's baby. I am in love with your brother. It wasn't planned and just happened. It wasn't like we decided to not use protection, it was the heat of the moment. My life is so messed up I can't turn back the time. It's happened. Now I am going to be stuck in the middle.

 I was still in a daydream walking through the airport towards the arrivals lounge where people met up. I wasn't really looking but there was a guy all dressed in black jeans, black t-shirt and black jacket. He was also wearing a baseball cap and a pair of sunglasses looking straight at me. Then I realised who it was. I ran towards Jordan and threw my arms around him into a hug. 

"I had to come. I missed you Ava so much". I buried my head in the crook of his head smelling his cologne and then the tears fell. "What's wrong, Ava.?".

"Not here. I missed you too".

The drive to his place was eerie quiet as I didn't want to talk. I just looked out of the window. Jordan glanced at me now and then while driving. I wiped the tears from my eyes as I look out the window.

" Are you alright?". I stayed quiet. "Did it go alright, didn't it". I carried on looking out the window. How am I going to tell them without hurting the both of them?. "Please talk to me, Ava".

"I am OK, just tired". I am carrying your child. Your brother is going to kill us. I am going to be stuck in the middle of you two.

" Long flight then".

"Yeah".

" Are you sure you are alright. Cos you are not very talkative today".

"Just tired".

We soon arrived at his place. As I walk slowly behind Jordan I take in the view of his house. It is huge like a proper rockstar house you used to see on MTV cribs back in the day. It's a beautiful house. He opened there door for me as he did, he gave me a worried look on his face. He wrapped his arms around me and gave me little kisses all down my neck. I closed my eyes and moaned as he kissed me. 

"I am going to make you feel better than you are going to tell me what's wrong when you are ready too". He kissed me on the lips and then took my hand and lead me to his bedroom where all this mess started in the first place. He laid me down on the bed.

He slowly kissed me all over my body and he puts his hands on my body following where he is kissing me. He balanced himself on his elbows so he wasn't putting much weight on me. 

"You look different, Ava".Does he know? 

"I have only been gone two days. Plus I have been sick too so you didn't see me then".

" No, that's not it. But there is something. You only had a check-up, it's not done yet".

"I have to wait for more results and another month before the procedure can happen"I lied. I have never done that lied to a boyfriend before. I can't tell him yet not until my appointment with an OBGYN which is next month. 

" You're glowing".

"Must be my new makeup brand" I replied.

"Yeah, that must be it" as he kissed me on the lips. I don't think he is convinced. He looked at me with a raised brow. I could hear the clockwork going on in his head doing overtime. "Anyway, I got to go again for another month". I am going to spend another month on my own with the annoying little voices.

Does he want me to keep the baby?

Would he want me to get rid of the baby?

Does he want children?

Will he leave me?

What will happen between him and his brother, Jon?

He pulled my top up over my head as well as his own. I was there thinking about the ways I am going to tell him. There he was wanting to make love to me and I am not in the mood. 

" You look distracted Ava. Are you sure you OK?" he replied, "Do you want me to stop?". I shook my head. He undid my jeans and pulled them down with my panties. He carried on kissing and stroking my thighs. I laid there moaning with my eyes closed. Somehow my hands started to move over his body. I helped him out of the rest of his own clothing. 

We spent our time roaming our hands all over each other. He looked at me as if to say, can I? I nodded. Then he pushed himself inside of me. He started to pump in and out while kissing me. I started to groan and moan. I started to enjoy the moment again. He soon climates and while still inside of me, he looks down at me.

"Are you going to tell me what's wrong, Ava. I know something is up".

" I can't".

"Why not? You're breaking up with me, aren't you?". He pulled himself out and rolled away from me. I look into his eyes and there was anger. " There is someone else". 

"No".

" Then tell me what's going on?". 

"I can't" tears started to fall down my cheeks. We had our first fight and it was a massive one. Both of us had tears in our eyes as we were putting our clothes back on still shouting and screaming at each other. I then ran out of the house never once looked back at Jordan who stood there in the middle of his bedroom dumbfounded. His eyes went wide when he realised what might be up.She's pregnant. She's carrying my baby. Oh crap, what's Jon going to think?.