Being God's light

Opportunities

Okay so I didn't exactly plan to write today , but now I feel I need to . I hope the Lord to guide me while I write this to say what I need to say even though I have no idea where I'm going with this. 

I've been so busy lately with my finals and on top of that moving , so I didn't really make time for the Lord and just sit down and spend time with Him like I used to .

And it really took a toll on me and my life . I never thought that it would impact me as it did . But then again I've never had such a strong relationship with the Lord as I have now , well before this started .

I've been going through a lot of emotions this last two months and I've been getting very sad for no reason.  And it's times like these when I find I just want to cry about everything for no reason, that the enemy tries very hard to take me out and use that as an opportunity .

It's when I find myself doubting my morals, standards , goals and everything there is to doubt . It's when I think about everything and wonder if I'm doing the right thing . If it's still worth it .

so skipping ahead ,I'm in this funk. I'm crying and moody over everything and now I have to start my finals at a new school where I don't know anyone.  So you can imagine how that made me feel on top of what I already felt.

Long story short , God used that as an opportunity. He used the Finals as a way for me to meet my (now current) friend.

I met her there and she's a Christian just like me. She's the one who helped me get out of this funk and draw back to the Lord.  She's the one who prayed for me and told me to not let the enemy tell me to doubt myself.  She's the one who reminded me what the Lord had promised me .

Because guess what ? The enemy tried the same trick on me that he did a few months back .

He placed a cute boy before my eyes who liked me  . We started to talk and spend time together and you all know how the previous story ended . This ended the exact same way . With him walking out of my life after 2 weeks this time.  Not even 3 months like the other one !

This is when I doubted if there was something wrong with me . Is there a reason why this keeps happening to me ? Am I the problem ?

And if the Lord hadn't put my friend in my  life I might've never understood . She told me that the enemy is trying to keep me and distract me from God's best , from the person God has for me. The enemy doesn't want me to be happy,  he wants me to be in a doomed relationship and to distance myself from the Lord. 

So I'm here to tell you that God uses opportunities for your good. God is fighting your battles for you and you will get through whatever you are dealing with .

You are not alone . And it may seem tough and it may seem difficult but God never left you and he never will. 

God is here,  right beside you wherever you are , waiting for you to come back . Because nothing is too big to keep you from the Lord and nothing can keep the Lord from loving you .

You'll get through this and my prayer to you today is that you will find your strenght in the Lord if you have lost it like I did . And that you will know that the Lord loves you and in this moment Heaven is working for your good.  Because in the end , God is the only one who's opinion matters .

I love you all and God loves you. 

I hope this helped somehow and that you took something from this experience and that you know that you're not alone. The song above is one I found a week back on one of those days where I felt like giving up and it really strengthened me and helped me . I hope it does the same for you. ❤❤❤