I'm going to start the VOTD with some little background. Some of you may know of what happend to me last year with a guy I met. To those who don't; he basically viewed me as a summer fling. (Nothing like that happend but I had feelings ) and it left me with a lot of hurt and sorrow towards him in my heart. Nevertheless, I forgave him and pronounced him free for what he did to me and I moved on. Or so I thought.
We didn't talk the whole year of 2019 until he came back to my town for summer vacation and tried to 'hit me up ' again. Long story short I didn't let that bother me and didn't reply or anything since I knew he was toxic for me.
This morning my folks said I was going swimming with my little brother and sister tommorow and just the THOUGHT of possibly seeing him tommorow made me cry like a newborn baby. I BAWLED my eyes out . It was almost like I had this ... fear in my heart towards him . I was AFRAID of seeing him and him seeing me . It was like all of my insecurities I've battled to let go of suddenly came back. I felt not worthy and ugly even though I know that's not what God says about me.
It was like I forgave him but never worked through the pain and hurt he left behind. While I was going through my Bible to find something to make me feel better , an old photo of my mom and I fell out of the Bible from Ecclesiastes 11 and I almost cried twice as hard.
"Truly the light is sweet, and a pleasant thing it is for the eyes to behold the sun. " verse 7. Skipping ahead to verse 10 it said;
" therefor remove sorrow from thy heart, and put away evil from thy flesh for childhood and youth are vanity. "
It made me realize that I can't let him stop me from living my life. I can't let this throw everything I've worked for and achieved for myself fly out the window and go back to that little girl crying in the corner.
He may have said not worthy of my time. God said worthy of MINE.
He may have thought, not beautiful enough. God said fearfully and wonderfully made.
I can't let yesterday define my tommorow and you shouldn't either. If any of you are going through something similar, don't forget what God says about you. The world's view on you doesn't matter ❤
I love you all so much ❤❤❤
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