The Mendes Boy

~the edge~

The next morning it was impossible for me to go to school I had been suicidal for a while and no one knew or knows Shawn kind of knows

he's trying to talk to me he texted me and I thought this though last night so I hopped on a plane and went to Cincinnati

Me~ I'm sorry shawn but I don't want to hurt anyone any more I'm going to be with Liam now

~Shawns point of view~

I got a text "I'm sorry shawn but I don't want to hurt anyone any more I'm going to be with Liam now " i read out loud my friends all looked at me

"Where would Austin go to be with liam?" I asked they gulped "red river gorge" I ran as fast as i could my best friend Cameron followed

we bolted and drove to the nearest air port and got on a helicopter and flew to red river gorge she wasn't there when we landed and I feared the worst...that I was to late but she arrived shortly after I saw her by the edge I pulled her back "AUSTIN NO STOP DON'T" my hands were on her arms

"THIS ISN'T THE ANSWER IF YOU DO THIS YOU WILL HURT MORE PEOPLE THEN YOU REALIZE STOP PLEASE DON'T, YOU DON'T WANT TO PUSH ME OVER THE EDGE THIS WILL,

YOU DON'T WANT TO HURT ME THIS WOULD BREAK ME, STOP TRYING TO PUSH ME AWAY I AM NOT GOING ANYWHERE, LIAM AND YOUR DAD ARE GONE BUT IT ISN'T YOUR FAULT YOU NEED TO STOP BLAMING YOURSELF FOR WHAT HAPPENED TO THEM" I screamed at her I let out a big breath

"Blaming yourself isn't going to bring them back,, please come home" I wrapped my arms around her neck she cried into my chest for almost an hour I massaged her back then we got on the helicopter and went home

She fell asleep laying on my shoulder
And I laid her in her bed then left

~Me~3 weeks later~

I still ignore Shawn but he saved my life if it weren't for Shawn my mom would be burrying her her daughter like she did her son and her husband

I don't want to fall for him I push people away I make out with every guy that I know I don't want to be with because I don't want to be with anyone I fear that what happened to me will happen again that disgusting monster that took advantage of me that asshole that

Forced his cock into me I don't want that to happen again but if i keep doing what I'm doing it's more likely to happen again this way then if I stop drinking, smoking, using

Shawn made his way over to me in the hallways this morning at school and complimented my outfit which I thought was strange since I was wearing an army t-shirt green ripped skinny jeans and combat boot so not anything special

~picture above~

"Austin stop pushing me away, do you like me if you do just tell me and if you don't I'll leave you alone "Shawn What do you want from me,

to tell you no I don't like you, no I don't think about you all the time how I'm not supposed to fall for you, I'm not falling for you I can't fall for you