2 years ago something happened to me that I'd rather not say I didn't tell anyone what happened for a couple weeks then I told my brother
Two weeks after i told him my family went on a camping trip in Cincinnati at Red River Gorge, Red River Gorge was known as a deadly
spot and Liam knew this so one night the first night we were there he wandered off when he thought everyone was sleeping but I wasn't........
I followed him to the edge when he said his final goodbye
"God take me now between my dad beating the living hell out of me every single day of my life and what happened to Austin
I don't want to be here anymore take me away take me from my life this isn't even living anymore I'm dead inside and I want to be dead outside too" he confessed I screamed at him I said
"LIAM NO GET BACK HERE STOP PLEASE DON'T GO" and cried for him to stop to come back i pulled him back and tried to stop him he let go of me and then I tried again.. to stop him.....
but it was too late....he was gone I sat down in silence sobbing for my brother to come back and then realization hit me that he wasn't coming back about
a year after Liam's death my dad went back to the same place and jumped
I blame myself for their death I had conflicted feelings when my dad died because he was abusive but I blame myself because I told him that it was
his fault and my fault that liam was dead I thought maybe if I kept my mouth shut if I didn't say anything
about what happened to me they'd still be here. Liam was my hero and when he was gone I knew I would never be the same
my brother loved to protect me and I feel like I failed him I miss him so much but I know he's in a better place and I know that I'll see him again one day so rest easy bumblebee"
I tried not to cry everyone was clapping some were crying "I gotta go" I ran out "Austin wait" Shawn followed me
"get away from me" I snapped I ran outside and got on my bike and went home I changed my clothes
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I cried for 2 hours then I drank 3 beers shot up and still felt like hell
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The Mendes Boy
Hayran KurguWill 16 year old Austin Blake ever have a normal life. Will she fall in love? Will she let her gaurd down for the Mendes boy that she doesn't want to let in her life? or will she let fear take over her She's guarded when it comes to letting people i...
