The Mendes Boy

~going home~

Shawn noticed me I looked at him then he walked away probably because the last time i saw him I told him to fuck himself 

"Shawn wait I'm sorry" he ignored me I sighed "of course he would ignoring me" it's my fault I yelled at him

  but if i had never got arrested I would have never got the help I so desperately needed. I would have never met that medium that gave me hope and peace that I'm not a killer and I'd still be broken and blaming myself for the death of Liam and My Father

So in reality I should be thanking Mendes I walked up to his friends what's your kind of my friends too I guess

"sup Austin how are you?" Cameron asked "I'm good, thanks to Shawn, um has he talked about me at all?" I asked them

"Yeah all the time he misses you but he knows that you don't want him so he's moving on, hes trying to forget you" they explained to me

"Moving on how" "if you mean has he been talking to other girls then no, he's upset but he realize that you can't force someone to be with you" "What do I do I like him okay I do I don't

want to but I can't help it something about him makes me want him" I confessed to them " okay tell him that" "how dumbass he wont even talk to me" i rolled my eyes "okay chill, He loves music maybe you can sing a song for him " Cameron gave me his address"

That night I went to his house

And stood by his window and started singing  on purpose

~Sabrina Carpenter~ I wrote for him
Your eyes
Crashin' into my eyes
Was I accidentally falling in love?
Your words
Didn't mean to heal the hurt
Were coincidentally more than enough

All these days I never thought
That I would need someone so much
Who knew?
But I don't think I ever planned
For this helpless circumstance 
With you" I sang to the window

"If you don't like that one I have another" I sang to the rhythm of introducing me my song ~Nick jonas~

Shawn opened the window

"I'm, I'm really scared sometimes
I think love Is a waist of time
And you're not asking
But I'm not girlfriend material

I , take things slow please
And sometimes I push people away 
Otherwise I'm really sorry cuz I kinda like you
And I, I really like it when the moon looks like a toenail
And I love it when you say my name" I sang

He came down to me

"If you wanna know
Here it goes
Gonna tell you this
The part of me that shows if you're close
Gonna let you see everything
But remember that you asked for it
I'll try not to hut you
But it's easier to leave you
Take a guess at the rest
But you wanna hear what lives in my head

My heart, will you ask for it, for your perusing?
At times confusing, slightly amusing
Introducing me

Doo doo, doo doo doo doo
Doo doo, doo doo doo doo
La da…" I finished singing the song he was smiling

"You are amazing" he leaned in and kisses me forcefully and passionately then pulled away