The Mendes Boy

~handcuffed~

If I told you that I like you the needy asshole who won't leave me the fuck alone it would be the end" "then why the hell do you keep pushing me away" he snapped

I dragged him outside where no one was

"Why the hell do you keep pushing me away let your guard down if you like me let your guard down" he snapped

"BECAUSE SHAWN I'M DAMAGED GOODS THAT NOBODY WANTS SHAWN, I DON'T LET PEOPLE IN BECAUSE I CAN'T LOSE SOMETHING

THAT WAS NEVER MINE, MY GUARD IS UP SO THAT WHAT HAPPENED TO ME DOESN'T HAPPEN AGAIN SHAWN I WAS RAPED HE TOOK ADVANTAGE

OF ME HE TOOK MY INNOCENCE AWAY FROM ME I FEEL LIKE A WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT I BLAME MYSELF FOR WHAT HAPPENED TO

I MY FAMILY AND I WANT TO BE WITH YOU BUT I CAN'T SHAWN I WON'T LET MYSELF HURT YOU TOO"

I screamed at him and left

2 weeks later

I was in my room about to shoot up again when my mom walked into the room" "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING AUSTIN, drugs are not the answer, stop this do you want to end up in prison for the rest of your life,

getting high is not a solution to whatever your feeling inside let it out do not keep your feelings inside anymore" she yelled at me crying

"Well what the hell am I supposed to do mom I'm in pain i hate myself LIAM AND DAD ARE DEAD AND IT'S MY FAULT" i yelled crying

"Austin look at me" I refused "Austin look at me" she raised her voice I still wouldn't "Austin Marie Blake you look at me now or so god help me" she got even louder I turned my head facing her letting the tears fall

"IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT THAT THEY DID WHAT THEY DID" "they were broken like you are, what happened to you keeps you away from loving

that boy but he isn't that disgusting monster that took advantage of you at that party and I promise you that liam and your dad would never want to see you this upset about them it isn't your

fault that they are gone trust me Austin it's not your fault you tried to stop Liam but it wasn't going to make him better or fix him the damage of people that aren't you was to late

And I'm sorry but you need help" I honestly didn't at all 100 percent believe what she was saying a part of will probably

a police officer came through the door
"I'm sorry Austin but this is for your own good

I heard police sirens go off i stood up and looked out my window the officer forced my hands behind my back and pinned me against the wall I clenched in pain

The police officer held me back facing my mom

"you did this to me, you broke me, get away from me I hate you" struggling out of my hand cuffs

"you called the police on me, mom why what are you doing" i snapped I clenched my face in pain I realized Shawn was standing there

"I'm sorry Austin this is for your own good" my mom says i looked at Shawn he was crying