Meant to be

Chapter 5-Lexie

It's been three days since I woke up. but I was in the hospital for a week before that. I don't know how but they managed to save my legs which I'm extremely grateful for. I heard that Doctor Robbins had to have her leg amputated and that itself sucks. I'm still hooked up to oxygen and an iv but they say that I'm healing well. No infection which is good. I won't be able to walk anytime soon but tomorrow I can sit up, I'm hoping that they'll let me go see Mark..it's killing me to just lay here. It's lunch time so Meredith brings in a tray full of food for me. "Great I'm starving" I tell her smiling, she smiles back and puts the tray on my bed tray. her hair is up in a messy pony tail and she smells like she needs a shower. I guess she hasn't gone home much since I was admitted here. "I thought you might be" she sits down in the blue seat next to the bed. I look at the tray and I see a sandwich, peanut butter and jelly per usual. a fruit cup, some fries and salad. I pick up a French fry and pop it into my mouth. Im about to ask her about mark when she's tells me "there's no update on Mark. I'm sorry" he's only got a couple weeks left before they take him off of life support and I can't wait to see him. They told me that he had a surge, that he woke up for a couple days. He seemed fine to them, but when they tried to tell him about me he wouldn't listen. apparently he also broke up with Julia. I chew the fry and sigh "Thanks" I say half-heartedly. She nods "Anyone you want to see today?" She asks me that almost everyday and I always give her the same answer "Mark" she leans back in the chair "I know Lexie, I know"

Meredith was paged about halfway through my lunch so she left. After I finished I put my tray to the opposite side of the bed. I sigh and close my eyes trying to relax. I wake up 4 hours later and see Jackson, which is a surprise to me because ever since we broke up its been a little awkward between us. He's sitting in the chair that Mer was and he has a couple charts that with him. I turn my head toward him "Hi" he looks up from reading a chart and locks his perfectly blue eyes with mine. "Oh good your awake" he smiles "How are you feeling?" "I feel fine" I reply. He nods "okay look I don't want it to be weird between us because we used to date" i study him as he takes a breath "I'm with April now..and your in love with Mark so-" I cut him off there "wait April? really" I smile because his cheeks start turning red "that's great." I've moved on, well I shouldn't really say that I've moved on from him because i always truly loved Mark but I'm completely over Jackson and I'm glad he's over me. "Uh do you want dinner? I can go get you some" his cheeks are still pink so I smile and shake my head "No I'm good" He stands up as his pager beeps and closes his chart "Alright well I'll see ya" he starts to walk out "see ya" I tell him. Once he's gone I'm feeling tired again so I fall back asleep.

I wake up early in the morning, I can tell because of the way the sky looks. Doctor Bailey is checking my monitors and administering my medication. I look over at her tiredly, since no lights are on all I can think of is the forest..suddenly all I can feel is the weight of the plane trapping me. my eyes widen and I yell. I start to cry. I don't notice that I'm in the hospital until there's several nurses in here and Doctor Bailey. she's holding me down as well as two nurses. I look around frantically. Doctor Bailey says to me calmly "it's okay, your in the hospital. it's okay your safe now" she keeps repeating them to me until I calm down and start to fall asleep again my body feels heavy which means they probably gave me a sedative, I drift off into a deep sleep.

When I open my eyes the next morning there's a wheelchair next to my bed, also Meredith is here as well as Derek and Doctor Torres. Meredith smiles "Good morning" I smile back "Hey..do I get to go see him today" Derek smiles "Sure. as long as everything checks out" I nod, of course do whatever you want because I get to see Mark today For the first time since the crash. A couple minutes later I'm in a wheelchair heading to his room. Meredith had surgery so Derek's taking me instead. We don't really talk. I ask him about surgery but he tells me because of his hand that he hasn't been able to operate, which sucks. Then finally were here. I thought i was ready to see him like this. but I wasn't. He's hooked up to ventilation tubes so he can breathe, a feeding tube and several more. Derek pushes me right up to his side. I look at him sadly because all I want is to be in his arms with him telling me that he loves me. I reach over and gently take his hand. After a second it twitches, i look up at Derek "did you see that?" I ask excited. He walks over to the other side of the bed and checks his eyes for response and then checks the monitor, bp pulse. It's slightly elevated! I look at Mark who, could be waking up! I Smile at him. still holding his hand tightly. to help him make it through the way that he helped me. I reach over and stroke his cheek with my other hand. "Hey Mark, I've missed you. I almost died out there but they saved us. They saved you too" Derek looks at me "keep talking" he says it quickly so I think that he's onto something. I look at Mark "I love you Mark. I always have and I always will" I smile repeating the words he told me "you know why? because we're meant to be. And you need to wake up, you need to wake up for me. for our future children" I smile because just thinking about it makes me extremely happy "but that can only happen if you wake up" I grip his hand tighter and he to my utter surprise and joy, grips it back. I look at Derek wide eyed and he shouts for someone to page Doctor Torres. I know why, I look at mark and I see his beautiful eyes looking straight at me. I start to cry because I'm so happy and smile at the same time. Marks awake, and he's gonna be okay.