Meant to be

Chapter 19-Lexie

Dinner last night was quite unexpected, Meredith is expecting. Which is great for them! Our kids will be buddies, and very close to the same age. Yay! I told all this to Mark, who, thought that I would feel like they were taking away the 'spotlight' or whatever he said. But really I don't mind.

I blink as I open my eyes to the bright sunlight shining through my room. I sit up and see Mark's not here. I suppose he's at work? Which isn't unusual.

I get up and feel my stomach roll. A wave of nausea rolls over my body and I run into the bathroom as quick as I can. I manage to vomit into the toilet without making a great mess.

A little while later after I'm showered and dressed I pull my hair back into my usual pony tail, because I feel to exhausted to do anything else. I slip on my shoes grab my purse and head out the door once I start walking down the hallway I see Arizona. I don't usually see her but I say hi. O she doesn't look too good probably why she's home when would not make sense otherwise she gives me a slight nod and walks to her apartment geez she must not feel good at all but I can relate because I'm not feeling that great myself. Space once I'm at work and walking down the hallways it starts to feel normal the scent of anesthetics and cleaning supplies. Once I start walking for about 10 minutes I start feeling nauseous again great. I rushed to the bathroom as fast as I can and go into an open stall just as the vomit comes up.

once I'm finished I hear a familiar voice it's April.

"L-Lexie? Er..Doctor Grey, uh Sloan? Are ypu okay?" She asks.

I raise my head and look over "Yeah, I'm fine" I brush a strand of loose hair behind my ear.

April nods, looking as if she doesn't quite believe me.

I walk out of the woman's bathroom still not feeling great, but seriously why? I sniffle. Oh great stuffed up nose. And wonder if I'm getting sick no I can't possibly be getting sick I have to work and if I'm sick Mark will not let me work. oh well I just have to push through it most doctors do anyways . Maybe I'll just have to stay away from Mark is well at least until the day is over I'm really have to get through today. He can baby me when I get home oh my gosh I still feel sick nope I'm not going to throw up no way not going to happen oh my gosh that might not be true nope already thrown up twice today I'm healthy healthy healthy . I walk down to the to my patients room. I grabbed the chart and stepped in but the bed is empty and stripped down. This makes no sense, I'll walk out to the nurses station and ask the first nurse I can see.

"Where's Mr. Brunner?"

The nurse practically replied, "no one told you? he went into shock last night and died. His heart stopped I'm sorry"

I clench my stomach as if someone just shot me. What!? I can't believe it! This can't be! "Why wasn't I notified? he is my patient!"

The nurse looked at me " I believe you were let me check" the nurse shuffled around some binders for a minute and then found sheet of paper. She nodded and looked at me. " it says here that you were page last night at 3:45 a.m."

What. I became so angry that I did not notice my sweet husband come up behind me he put his hands on my shoulders and look down at me "What's going on?"

I huffed out some air impatiently.

" well for starters my patient died last night, and no one even told me. I didn't get notified I'm supposed to get notified if anything happens to my patient especially if he dies I should have been here!"

I didn't notice how tense I was until Mark started massaging my shoulders. I let out a sigh. Can we not stand next to a bunch of people, I sneezed. That's when I noticed Mark's concerned eyes looking at me. I knew I had forgotten something I guess it was not to be around him until I was feeling better. Great.