The Game ✔

Chapter twelve

School doesn't appeal to me this morning. I don't even go have breakfast at Ayden's, afraid to face him again. Because last night happened. Because I'm confused and scared of what I could do or feel. 

I let my blond, golden hair fall over my shoulder in soft waves and stare at myself. A cold was slowly making its way, I felt it. 

I sigh and take my courage with my bare hands. I leave my room to enter the cold world, not daring to look at that horrible door teasing me, making me cringe from fear of what happened, of what secrets it holds.

''Mom?'' I ask in the kitchen.

''Right here.'' She says as she comes out of the bathroom adjacent to her door. ''What is it?''

''Can you drive me to school today, please?'' I ask.

''Ayden can't drive you?'' She asks curiously.

''I thought it'd be nice to drive together,'' I say nonchalantly although I know it's a big deal. We never drive together anymore.

''Of course, I'll go get my purse and I'm ready.'' She says as she walks away toward her bedroom. I get ready and soon we are in the car, driving off.

''Have you eaten this morning?'' She asks me.

''No, but I brought something to eat in class,'' I tell her distantly.

''Right. So what's up between you and Ayden?'' She seems curious.

''He just doesn't like the guy I'm dating.'' 

''And does he have a good reason to think that?'' She asks.

''Maybe, but I don't care it's my choice.'' I see the side glance, the tightening of her fist around the steering wheel. She doesn't look at me nor ask me more questions about this secret relationship. She pulls over at my school a few minutes later.

''Have a nice day sweetheart, want me to come to pick you up?'' She asks but I'm already shaking my head.

''No it's fine, Liz will bring me back home with her parents,'' I say. I close the car door and walk away.

When I get inside the school, no one is in the hallway. I walk around looking for people until I hear someone speak loudly. And it sounds awfully like my voice.

I walk up to the source of the sound and there's a commotion where I find it. Right in the cafeteria, there's someone that pulled a big screen where a video is playing and I'm there in full view, cuddling up in my blanket in Cameron's car.

And the words that leave my mouth make me cringe.

  'My best move was with Freddy Allen'  

People whistle in the crowd that surrounds the screen. 

''It's been playing three times,'' Liz says next to me and I jump back, taken by surprise.

''From where it starts?'' I ask, a bit panicked about my virginity being revealed. I like to think that it's cool I still have it but I don't like the whole school knowing.

''Cameron showing off his best move, you seemed pretty into him when he said it.'' She gives me a look but I don't analyze it when I hear myself say my next sentence. I freeze, cold inside as if I just revealed how disgusting I really was.

'So he was just another one?'

'You really want to know? Yes. There it is, I never loved him, never had an ounce of feeling towards him.'

Some people seem to notice my presence and elbow the ones at their side until almost the whole crowd is staring at me.

I gulp loudly but the sound of my own voice covers it. I look at Liz and discover Jake at her side, both of them as stunned as I am.