MY HUSBAND'S PLEASURE

19: A Wife's Love

Amber's POV

Dumating na ako sa apartment, agad ko ng pinuntahan yung kitchen at tinuro naman ni kuy ali si maxein, at naabutan ko ngang umiiyak si maxein sa lapag ng kitchen, it's a total mess in here, maxein is crying and bursting into tears.. Damn it amber.. Look what you've done.

''maxein?'' I called, tumingin ito sakin but he looked away, wipping his own tears away.

''what are you doing here?'' he said, not even bothered to look at me, lumapit ako sakanya, lumuhod sa tabi niya, I was about to hold him pero binawi niya ang sarili niya.

''bakit ka nandito? You left remember? Di mo na ako mahal.'' he said, medyo galit narin ang tono nito.

Amber.. Kain pride ka nalang.. Babaan mo na sarili mo... kahit ilang beses ka pa saktan nito, siya parin, patawarin mo siya ng patawarin, kahit ikaw lang ang nasasaktan! Magpakatanga ka para kay maxein.

''ako? Hindi mo na ba ako mahal?'' I asked, medyo naiiyak narin ako, mahirapan na ako between sa aming dalawa, kahit ako na yung sobrang nasaktan, sobra umiyak, basta please... I just don't want him seeing in this situation, I don't like him getting hurt because of me.

''how am I supposed to answer that? You don't love me anymore.'' he said.

''baby, I never said that.'' I answered, naluluha nalang ako, while I felt the two leaving the room. Tumayo si maxein at napatayo narin ako, bigla na naman ito nagbato ng baso.

''eh ano nga amber?! Ano nga?! Ano bang gusto mong mangyari?!'' sigaw nito.

''bakit kaba nagkakagany--''

''I'm getting insane!! I'm going insane cause I thought I'm slowly losing you!'' he said, galit na galit itong nagsalita, pero nagbago at parang medyo nadismaya at nagregret, bigla itong hinawakan yung mga kamay ko at lumuhod, hinalikan pa niya ang kamay ko sa harapan ko habang umiiyak ito.

''amber I'm sorry, I'm sorry!! Please just come back to me I'm going insane without you, please!!'' iyak nito, habang hawak hawak yung mga kamay ko, nakaluhod at nagmamakaawa.

''maxein stop..'' naiiyak na ako.

''amber, I love you so much!! I'm sorry!! Forgive me amber, I'll do anything, I'll change I promise just don't leave me.'' iyak pa nito, napatingin ako sa itaas, grabe na... I feel good, sad, and angry at the same time. Good, because maxein loves me. Sad, because xein is crying infront of me. And angry, cause I'm hurting him.

''hindi mo na ba ako mahal? Ayaw mo na ba sakin? Iiwanan mo na ba ako ng tuluyan?'' iyak nito, making an eye contact with me, at dun na ako natigilan.

Tumayo ito, pinatong ang siko niya sa counter na nanahimik habang umiiyak nalang, ako naman na nilapitan siya at niyakap mula sa likod. Wrapping my arms around his torso and putting my head on his back.

''Jusko, mahal na mahal kita. i-I promise you... that kahit ilang beses mo ko saktan at iwan, kahit ilang beses mo ako saktan, physically or emotionally, I will be here, I wouldn't care anymore, all I know is that I love you more than my fucking life. Hurt me all you want, but I'm not leaving you.'' I cried on his back.

He turned around and pulled me, wrapping his arms around me. Hugging me as I hug back.

Teka... bakit ang init ni maxein?

''maxein?'' I called, and his eyes were down at parang nahimatay pa ito, inilagay ko ang kamay ko sa leeg at noo niya, and fuck! Ang init niya! Nilalagnat siya!!

''Ali!! Travis!! Help!!!'' napasigaw nalang ako, as I hug xein, at parang buhat buhat ko narin ito, damn it xein.. Ano bang pinag gagawa mo sa sarili mo?!