Relentless

Chapter 14

Jay

Hospitals make me so uncomfortable. I feel claustrophobic and germy. As I sit in the two by four room, alone, I feel my insides cramp and then release. Cramp and then release.

"Hello Ms. Summers." Dr. McAllister greets, stepping inside and closing the door. I smile at her as she walks over to me with her clipboard. "How are you feeling?"

"Better." I simply say. She puts the clipboard on the examination room bed and moves to my head.

"I'm just checking to make sure the wound is doing okay. I'm also going to change the bandage. It comes to my attention that you're starting school on Monday."

"Yes, I am."

"I know it is nerve wracking starting a new school year, especially starting a new school year at a new school. I have a feeling you'll fit in perfectly." She says. I laugh a sarcastic laugh as she fixes another small bandage to hold the cut together.

"I've never fit in anywhere."

"Maybe you can fit in here. Just let yourself be you." I look at her and she smiles at me. "So your head is all clear. How about I check those scars?"

I haven't looked at them myself. I kept the jacket on at all times. I unzip it and take it off, revealing the scars on my arms. However, they are barely there!

"See? I told you they would heal!" She cheers. I lift up my tank top and see my scarless stomach and roll my pants leg up to reveal the same. I smile as wide as I can and let out a little squeal. Once she says I can leave, I carry my jacket in my hand and walk out behind her.

"Give me one second, Ash." She says as she goes behind the front desk. I look up from the ground and lock eyes with Satan. His jaw drops as he sees me and I continue to walk past him, to the front desk. "Remember to take your medication and remember what I said." Dr. McAllister says, winking at me. I smile weakly and turn to leave. I turn my head to impulsively look at Ashton to find that he is staring at me. I walk to the elevator and press the button, waiting for the doors to open.

Stepping inside and waiting for the doors to close, I see Ashton run for the elevator and slip in.

Great! Just great.

"Jay, I'm..."

"Save it." I interrupt him. "I meant what I said when I said I wanted nothing to do with you. Can't you just accept that there is one person that doesn't worship the ground you walk on?"

We stay there in silence for a few seconds until he turns to look at me.

"You're a bitch, you know that?" He says. I chuckle to myself.

"Yes, I am fully aware."

"You push away anyone that could ever possible give a shit about you! Lisa, me!"

"Oh, so the monster is capable of caring now, huh?"

"Yes! It is! I care, Jay!"

"Well you should stop! Everybody should just stop feeling sorry for me because I've lost everything and everyone. I am not the same person that I was. I have a hole where my heart is, Ashton. You can't care about someone who isn't capable of caring about you back. Just forget about me! Leave me alone! I just want everyone to leave me alone!" As I finish yelling, the doors open. I storm out of the elevator and run to the car, starting it and driving away.

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On Monday morning, I curl my hair and put on my eyeliner, just like the old me would do. Instead of putting on my girly clothes, I put on a purple tank top, my black jacket and jeans.