Everything has Changed {Sweeran sequel} Completed

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Taylor's POV.

I felt myself being pulled in every direction.

One minute I felt like I was here.

The next minute I felt like I was in a place far away.

What was happening to me?

Am I dying?

Ed's POV.

"I'm hungry." Lily said groggily opening her eyes.

"Okay. Why don't you go ask Grandma to take you to the food court." I said pointing to Andrea.

She shook her head.

"I want to be with you." She begged,

I nodded, standing up with her at my legs. Her little hand reached mine and we started on our way to the food court.

"Mommy's going to wake up soon." Lily said proudly.

"I don't think so Lil'." I said using her nick name.

"She is Daddy. She told me last night when I was sleeping."

I looked down at my daughter. She was smiling up at me. I smiled back and looked ahead. If only she knew that her mother wasn't going to be waking up for days. Possibly months.

I thought about the fact of Taylor not being in my arms for months. I thought about how she might miss Lily's birthday this year, let alone her own.

All of the things I managed to push back for the sake of Lily started swimming around my head.

What if she wakes up and I'm not there? What if she wakes up and decides to leave me?

No one ever knew about these thoughts circling around inside my head. They'd all think I was crazy. Everyone would start shouting answer along the lines of "Why would she leave you?" and "She loves you too much to let you go."

As much as I love Taylor I would never tell anyone this but, back when she lost the baby and we became distant I feared every day that she would leave me. I was afraid she would walk out and take Lily with her.

And for a moment during all the chaos of losing the baby and her becoming depressed I had thoughts of leaving. I thought about it for hours sitting up in that tree. I thought about things I would never dream of telling anyone.

But it all changed. My thoughts all changed the day Lily came running out because she saw Taylor crying. It changed when I ran into the room and saw her lying on the floor with every tear that was ever in her body on her face. When I realized she still needed me.

I felt terrible the rest of the night. I had been out on that tree branch all morning when I should've been there for her. She was upstairs crying while I was thinking about leaving her. I hurt myself more and more everyday after that at the thought that I almost left her.

Then the night at the Grammy's when I sat next to her body on the ground. I thought I had lost her. Not just in death but in every way. Part of me felt that when she woke up she would see that I was the cause of her accident.

I was the cause of all of this. This depression that has been weighing down on her shoulders was all caused by me. If I would've been there in the mornings and at night for her. If I would've helped her more, physically and mentally she would still be at home with us. She wouldn't be confined here. Stuck in a hospital bed with wires and tubes everywhere.

Then there was Lily. I had no explanation to any of the questions she asked. How was I supposed to tell her that her mother had died? How was I supposed to tell her that her mother was still alive and was going to be alright but we couldn't see her.

She was five. Five. No five year old should have to sit in a hospital day to day waiting for their mom to wake up. I saw the way she would look away when anyone talked about Taylor. Whether it was negative or positive she wouldn't listen. She would look away every time. And every time I swear I saw the tears in her eyes. She didn't know what happening to Taylor but, in a way she did know.

It wasn't until I heard her small voice that I stopped.

"Daddy." She said quietly.

I looked down at her. Down at the scared expression on her face.

I picked her up.

"It's okay Lily. I'm sorry." I said as she buried her face into my neck.

She pulled away and looked at me.

"Are you still hungry?" I asked.

She shook her.

"I just want to be with you." She said.

It was then again that I started thinking.

This whole time all I've been worried about is Taylor. I didn't once think to worry about Lily. To worry about what she was thinking.

I walked through the halls with her still in my arms, her head laying gently on my shoulder. I rubbed her back as I breathed in the scent of her hair.

Upon hearing footsteps I turned around to find Austin.

"She's moving." He said.

"What?"

"She's moving, Ed. She's waking up."

I felt every doubt about Taylor that was ever in my head disappear as I thought about what Lily said earlier. Maybe in some crazy way she was right. And maybe in some crazier way Taylor would wake up today.

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