Suga Has a Younger Sister? (BTS Fanfic)

It's Not Fine

~Yoongi's POV~

"Hey.. Hey.. Come on Yoonmi, calm down please. I know Jungkookie agreed to sing with you, but you should also know that he's an idol. It's hard to promise things." I whispered to her. She looked at me and put her face on my shoulder again.
"Look, we all love you, but we also have things to do.. Please understand. This wasn't his own choice." I added
"That's not it Yoongi. I'll just go to my room and finish my homework; I'm okay now." She said while taking my hands off her and standing up.

I reached for her hand. She just shrugged it off and went to the studio. I followed her until she closed the door and locked it. I tried to use the code, but it seems like she changed it. I tried to knock on it a few times, but all I got was "I want to be alone" and "Leave me alone please". I guess she'll be okay. The next thing that I had to do was go to Jungkook. Jin was sitting on his desk chair speaking to him. He didn't seem like he cried, just looks really upset. I sat next to Jin on the floor.

"Hey kid, what's up?" I said
"I'm okay, really. Hyungs, I'm fine. Check on Yoonmi, she seems the most upset." Jungkook answered. Aish, this kid. He wants everyone else to be okay, and doesn't want us with him.
"Jin-hyung, I got it from here. Thanks." I shooed him away. Jin seemed to pick up on it and left the room. I took his seat in the chair and lifted Jungkook's head up.
"It's really okay Kook. She's just disappointed. She got out all of her crying. You can try to talk to her, but she won't let me anymore. She's talented, she'll be okay." I reassured him. He nodded and then flashed a smile at me. I patted him on the back and then pulled him in for a hug. Yes, I have a soft spot for the maknae.
"I got it hyung. I'll talk to her tomorrow, probably at school during lunch when we meet like we always do." Jungkook finally spoke up.
"You better not be lying to me. Don't cover up your feelings like you try to do. We're here." I said before leaving.

~Yoonmi's POV~

I felt bad for locking Yoongi out, but I thought I might have sobbed even more. Mostly because he is my brother, yes, but he doesn't understand. The fact that this happens as much as it does is what upsets me. I know that they don't mean to upset me, but then sometimes I wish that they wouldn't tell me that things were going to happen and to not promise me things. I know that he was trying to spare my feelings, but in the end, it did more damage than i would have just saying it straight.

This might be the time to find another song. The easiest way to do this is to use the song that Namjoon helped me with, or I could learn another one completely. I had an idea, it would be harder, but I think it fits. I pull out my phone and put my headphones in. I searched Taeyeon's "Fine". I think this expressed a lot of the disappointment that I had experienced throughout without explicitly saying it. I didn't want to hurt their feelings, but it needs to be out there, song form might be best.

I went over to Yoongi's microphone and turned it on, keeping my own headphones in, and started to sing.

"On a ripped piece of paper

I wrote down how I really feel

And it gets clear, somethin' bout you

Yeah, you and I are similar but different

Do you feel the same way?

I'm getting my hopes up
When one day, one month, one year passes
Will we be living different lives?
Not me
It won't be easy for me
Still, you fill up my days
Not yet
I tell myself, like a fool
I can't swallow the words that linger in my mouth
It's not fine
Ah ah ah ah it's not fine
With my hair tightly tied up
I'm cleaning up my messy room
I'm looking for somethin' new
Sometimes, I get this overwhelming feeling
Of having to do something
So I move around for no reason
When one day, one month, one year passes
You said you'd probably smile and reminisce but
Not me
It won't be easy for me
Still, you fill up my days
Not yet
I tell myself, like a fool
I can't swallow the words that linger in my mouth
It's not fine
Ah ah ah ah it's not fine
Between the meaningless jokes, back-and-forth conversations
And all the people, I look like I'm fine
I pretend to be numb and I try to smile
I try to turn around from your shadow but
I keep thinking
About our last moment
The words "take care" was it for our plain breakup
Not yet
I tell myself, like a fool
I can't swallow the words that linger in my mouth
It's not fine
Ah ah ah it's not fine oh
Ah ah ah it's not fine"

I was singing a lot louder than I thought I was, but I think that it sounded good. I would listen to it a couple more times, as well as rerecord it as well. I decided to post this on Youtube under the same "Mimi Studio". I did still have to keep my identity a secret, so I thought this would be easier. I would not show my face on camera or edit the vocals at all. I put a pink background on the video and put my vocals in, acapella. I uploaded the video and shut Yoongi's laptop. I went over to the door, unlocked it, put pajamas on, and got into bed. I didn't think that I was as tired as I actually was. It was probably from the crying. I shut my eyes and fell asleep immediately.