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the journey of this book that has started will be finished. i promise you that.
a/n i have no disrespect against josh and debby most of this book was before they were engaged so plspls don't hate me for making a fanfic about him with another girl it's just a cute story KSKSK

josh

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i love her and i'm not sure how to say that. in many ways she's shown me that i can be more than i think i am. she makes me think i am capable of doing things i never thought i would. and even after everything that's gone on between my life and hers', there hasn't been one single thing to split us apart. and i should knock on wood saying this because it scares me to lose a precious gem like her. my sweet, she makes me feel so many emotions i never have. she's made me feel lust and anger at the same time. i mean, get you a girl who can do that. right?

it's been about 3 years. tyler and i have been on a hiatus from the band, but we strive to stick together no matter what. he's my best friend, and i'd never leave him. jenna's had her baby girl, cali. she's the cutest.

melanie and i are living in a humble little home down in north carolina near the beaches. we have a golden doodle and he's basically bigger than half of my bed and he just loves to sleep in between melanie and i.

sometimes, i wish things were how they used to be. when all of us four would just kick it. but we're in different states at the moment. we were younger, but mostly it's just us two plus our human-like dog.

i just lay here on my bed, my love sleeping below my arm. i feel her body shift every time she breathes. i graze my fingertips ever-so-lightly over her hair. just enough to soothe her sleeping as much as i can. i want her to know, she is not just a body to me, she is not something i just want to toy around with, she was, truly, my first love. and i want to make that known for sure.

she may have robbed my whole heart just by the way she smiles. by god, i'm going to marry that girl one day.