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Your feelings after the break up

Louis: You're frozen. You can't eat,sleep or move. You haven't been outside in days and are in some need of vitamin D. Your best friend can't get you to do anything. Even get out of bed and shower. You're completely out of it. In a fog. But you don't care about yourself or how your body is about to slowly shut down unless you give it what it needs, your eyes are bloodshot and your tear ducts are empty from the lack of water. You look like the walking dead. But that's also how you feel. At least dead people don't feel anything because other wise, you'd be in such unbearable pain. 

Liam: You're in denial. You won't talk or listen to your friends or family. You won't go on the computer. You keep trying to convince yourself that it's just a hoax and at any minute Liam will walk through that door. But in the back of your mind you know it's useless thinking. He's not coming back. But the pain is just slightly easier to deal with if you just continue to say that it's only temporary. So you let yourself believe that he's on tour,or that he's just visiting family and he'll be back soon. But even that isn't soon enough for you. It will never be soon enough. And that's the hard part. 

Niall: Your mental stability got so bad that you had to leave the country. You needed to go somewhere secluded. Away from the media and internet world. You needed to go somewhere that wouldn't have his face plastered in the window of every store. You needed to get out of reality and come to terms on the worst experience of your whole life. But mostly you just wanted to run from the pain. The pain of knowing that at any given time you could pass him on the street or bump into him at a restaurant. And your not ready for interaction again. So you ran. And you don't care who calls you weak at this point. Because you are. 

Harry: You go back to old habits. Quickly too. You go back to drug using and drinking. Something that Harry once helped you through. You figure that it numbs you from the world long enough so you won't feel the pain and suffering from your post break up depression. The boys have all seen pictures of you, looking unhealthy with a beer in your hand or a cigarette in your mouth. They've all tried to contact you too, well except for Harry. But it's no use. You won't listen to anyone anymore. Your walls are back up and your faith and trust gone they're staying that way until he comes back. Well, that's what you keep telling yourself. 

Zayn: You start harming yourself. You stop eating, you go back to self harm, something Zayn had gotten you to stop very early in the relationship. Anything that will ease the unbearable pain of your heart breaking into millions of tiny pieces. You've fainted in public more times then you can count because of the lack of nutrients and have been to the hospital and in the news just as much. Everyone knows what's going on and I mean everyone, including the boy who cause this himself. You lost the only person who ever cared about you and any hope for your future went down the drain. Along with your ability to cope.