Road to Recovery (Love & Hope Series #2)

"If We Hold On Together, I Know Our Dreams Will Never Die"

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heartIf we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I.

I watched The Land Before Time again (the film from my childhood) and I couldn't help but think about Mom, how beautiful she looked. Now, I think of myself as the protagonist of the group, Littlefoot, and how he lost his mother. Slight difference, but still, the same thing. I watched the film--I want to watch it with Robert, but I'm afraid he might think that's a little childish.

"Robert," I asked carefully. "Would you like to watch Land Before Time with me?"

"Isn't that a little childish?" Robert asked. "We're eighteen and nineteen years old, baby, and you expect me to watch a little kid's movie?"

With that, I ran into my room and cried. Robert came to my room, minutes later, with an apology. 

"I'm sorry, baby, I didn't mean to hurt your feelings." He said gently. "I'll watch The Land Before Time with you. It sounds pretty interesting, actually."

"It is. It's about dinosaurs."

"Dinosaurs're cool. Too bad that they all died, though, but in a way, that's a good thing."

"Uh...sweetheart? You just contradicted your own statement, you know that?"

"I know, I just feel bad that nothing of them is left but bones for archaeologists to find."

"Ah, I see. How long have you been interested in dinosaurs?"

"Since I was ten or so."

"That's cool. I just love this movie. It brings me back to happier times, whenever I'm sad or thinking about Mom, you know? It brings me comfort knowing that I'm keeping her memory alive by watching this. Steven and I used to watch this all the time with her...until she got sick."

"Awe, I'm here, honey, come on, let it out...it's okay, sh...it's okay." Robert comforted me so soothingly, like a father would do to his child.

"Thanks. It's nice to know that I'm in the arms of my boyfriend."

"You're welcome. It's nice to know that you appreciate me."

We watched The Land Before Time and then Robert had to go home.

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A/N-End of chapter 22. 

I hope you guys have a wonderful New Year's Eve & Day. For everyone who celebrates the Feast of the Holy Family--Jesus, Mary, & Joseph--or the Solemnity of Mary tomorrow (January 1), I wish you a good day & have a blessed new year.

Reflection time on 2018:

I've had a lot of ups & downs this year. The downs were:

1. Finrus (my cat) died on June 2.

2. Lost a lot of weight.

However, many pros were accomplished this year:

1. My bf's & I's 1-year anniversary of dating (March 10),

2. Getting baptized (Easter eve-March 31),

3. Getting my license (November 29),

4. Graduating from my community college (December 12--will have the graduation ceremony in May).

Even though these many positives may outweigh the the two negative ones, that doesn't mean they're equal/unequal, they can be the same, but for different reasons that're based on feelings & how we're feeling in the moment. That being said, one negative thing can't always outweigh three/five positive things. It's about people who love & trust you to let those emotions out. Never be afraid to ask for help, there're people willing to give it.