"I am not alone in my journey to recovery." Fast facts: ~24 million Americans suffer from eating disorders, every 62 minutes, someone dies of an eating disorder, 40% of Americans have either suffered or have known someone with an eating disorder, 10...
I found this on my bed, thinking what it could it be. Seeing what it was, I felt all loved and appreciated:
Dear Rachael,
I hope this letter found you okay. I hope you're okay. Even though I'm not with you physically, I'm with you mentally. Even when I'm not there with you right now, I am. Remember that. Remember that I'll always love you and I'm determined to marry you once we both get out of university. I'll love you until the end of my life.
Life's been rough for you--your mother died, and Alana, your best friend, has died, but God will help you through it. He places these heartbreaks because He knows what we can do and make it through the hardships. Hardships are a test of faith due to Him knowing that you will make it through.
Remember, you're beautiful and my special girl. Never forget that, baby.
Love, Robert
Awe, that is so sweet, I thought. He really loves and cares for me. He's very determined to marry me. He's got marriage on the brain. I think I'll send him a letter as well.
I sat down and penned this:
Dear Robert,
I love how you're always there for me--through thick and thin--especially after Mom and Alana died. I wish I could've saved both of them. I still feel guilty.
I'm glad you're determined to marry me. This gives me hope. :) I love how you talk about the future with me. It's very reassuring and loving.
Life has been rough for me, but I'm determined to keep faith in God and Jesus and tell Them everything that has happened. I'm determined that They'll help me in my time of need. Whenever I'm in Mass, I feel closer to Them.
You're right--hardships are a test of faith because it strengthens our bond with the Lord and Jesus. I love how you worded that.
I love you too, baby, thank you for being here.
Love, Rachael
There, that's done, I thought.
I decided to go to bed that night, full of happiness and love for Robert.
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A/N-I've returned from a two week hiatus with writing. Mahitabel--the cat that had cancer & also have mentioned in my news feed (my last post, the 26th of February) died during the night that night. I still miss her very greatly.
Here's a photo of me & her:
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She was such a sweetheart. One of my favorite photos of her:
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We got her when she was 14 (August 2011) & she died on February 26, 2019. RIP. I love you, Baby.
