City Fool // Spam book

2018

So I left 2018 on a negative note but I'm ready to start 2019 on a positive.

Close friends on here will know I've been in the hospital for most of New Years Eve which hasn't been fun. I woke up early with excruciating stomach pain and was rushed to hospital by my parents. I was puking up green puke which was disgusting. The doctors couldn't find out what was wrong with me but they thought I had appendicitis which thankfully I didn't but I was almost rushed for an emergency surgery. They dispatched me around 3-4pm before I came online and saw all the hateful messages and comments from people and found out a so called friend of mine posted something about me which I never saw but was still disheartening.

I now feel better since I've only been drinking water and eating toast to like my stomach.

This year has been a crazy ride with ups and downs which I will now share with you so here's a list of those ups and downs and the people that have made my year:

✨ I Published my story Bullied by Finn Wolfhard on June 15 this year and it already has 204k reads and 9k votes in such a short period of time and I'm forever grateful and thankful to anyone who has taken the time to actually read my work. I love you.

✨ I created friends but also lost some

✨ I've learnt from my mistakes, especially in writing and for issues in my personal life

✨ I moved from Toronto, Canada to England, United Kingdom to start a new life and it was a rocky start to the move with a mean girl at school but it was a great move and I couldn't be happier.

✨ I met a girl named Sophie who has now become my best friend

✨ I was extremely close to seeing Calpurnia live but unfortunately I moved around the time they did their Toronto show and the London show had sold out.

✨ I began bettering myself by jogging, eating more healthily, smiling more and generally being more positive

✨ I've spoken to so many amazing and kind hearted people on here and I'm going to tag each and every one of you in this chapter

✨ I finally did a face reveal even though I was nervous to and I got hate for it but I don't regret it

✨ I finally remade an Instagram account after I was forced to delete it by my parents years ago over bullies in my school in Toronto. My close friends know this story.

✨ My proof reader got me into a band called New Hope Club

✨ A guy in my physics class called me hot which no guy has ever done to my face before but then again every guy in my old school was trying to get with the mean girls

✨ I got a crush on that physics guy who got a girlfriend the day after he called me hot

✨ I met some amazing people online

✨ A lot of people online have said I inspire them and it makes me super happy to see that I'm spreading happiness and positivity to other people. It makes my heart happy 🥰

✨ An account online said I was the reason they didn't take their life and that makes me super happy. Always support people who need it the most. I'm so thankful they are still alive.

✨ I began exploring more

✨ I have a morning and nighttime routine to take care of my hair and skin now and although I've always worn make up, I've never taken full care of my skin from laziness so I'm breaking that habit now