oak trees // misfits

s a v e d

ship: krii7y
kryoz x smii7y
prompt: sometimes things get to the point where you want to die, john is definitely past that point.
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slight tw: suicide;  if you are sensitive to that topic i suggest you do not read this chapter :)

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there is always a point in life when everything hits you and you just lay staring at the ceiling.

john was at that point.

his computer lit up his room as he sat on the bed. john stared at the pill bottle in front of him. contemplating if he should take them or not.

on top of youtube and stress, depression and no motivation have been piling on top of everything. john's self image has been going to shit too, he doesn't talk much in videos due to the self hatred towards his own voice.

unfortunately, the suicide note was already written. it sat on john's desk. it was quite short, just him explaining why and whats been happening.

with tears in his eyes john took 10 pills out of the bottle, it should be enough to shut down his body.

before he was able to swallow the pills of death, someone softly knocked on the door. john's eyes widened, he had totally forgot jaren was coming to visit tonight.

"john? are you in there?" for a second john thought maybe he shouldn't say anything, then jaren would leave and john could do this in peace. but he didn't want to lie.

john dumped the pills onto the bed and opened the door. jaren stepped back, then rushed forward to hug john.

"i've missed you so much." the canadian mumbled into the others shirt. john squeezed jaren lightly, the younger didn't know how much john need a hug right now.

"i missed you too," john took a deep breath. inhaling the scent of the younger, he really did miss the fuck outta him.

jaren didn't know that he had just saved john's life.

john didn't know that jaren had seen the pills scattered across the bed.

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a/n: finally got a chapter out! :) still expect slow updates, im trying to re-adjust with school and crap <3