I wish you could see me.... I wish you could see how terrible I feel.... I know it's not my falt... they all say that I deserve better than you.... But I can't believe that ,when my life has been filled with self-hatred.. I don't deserve you.. I don't deserve anyone for that matter, and yet you decide to "stay" whatever that word means to you.
If you call "staying with me through thick and thin.... to be there when sky's are grey" staying distant, never talking to me, seemingly wanting to not even stand near me, sit at the furthest corner of the room away from me... a "normal" way for a boyfriend to act... then well. ... I don't know what to say..
All I can say is that I feel incredibly lonly. I need you... You've somehow managed to crawl through those small cracks in my heart and made a place for yourself there.... making me feel safer than I've ever felt with anyone before you.....
But...
The moment I tell you...
That this is how you make me feel...
Safe...
You turn around and leave me.... back to square one. Alone again...
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Things I Wanted To Say But Didn't
PoetryThings that I wanted to say...... But can't. .. This story isn't just me bitching about my relationships. I still bitch about my mental health tho lol. It's just me venting so eh. Ik that most people have things worse than me I just .... idk lol ___...
