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Things I Wanted To Say But Didn't

Poetry

Things that I wanted to say...... But can't. .. This story isn't just me bitching about my relationships. I still bitch about my mental health tho lol. It's just me venting so eh. Ik that most people have things worse than me I just .... idk lol ___...

#binge #depersonalization #depretion #deprivation #distant #longdistance #lonly #rants #relationship #relationship-complicated #sad #triggerwarning #warning

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by charliesnight

by charliesnight

I'm so fucking tired..

I could use other adjectives but none of them quite fit the bill.

I feel like every obstacle life throws at me I have to pay with my own life force, drain it from my body and then some at a transit.

I'm so tired of it.

It feels like I walk around in a husk of a body.

I rent it out to others, as a way to pay back for what I've taken.

Yet.. some how despite all this effort. I'm falling behind on rent.

It keeps tearing at the seems. I do my best to try stitch it back together but somehow it still manages to tare.

I might have to use the deposit. But I've spent it all on cigarettes and boos.

I can't keep living like this.

In a shell of the person I used to be.