Double Take

Chapter 21

*Lynn's P.O.V*

“Lynn, are you okay? Come in,” Tyler says sitting up in bed. I let out my shaky breath and step into his surprisingly clean room.

“No, I’m not.” I inhale sharply, standing awkwardly at the foot of his bed, “Your room is really clean, I didn’t notice that last time I was here.”

“There was a lot going on the last time you were in here,” Tyler chuckles. “You seemed shocked.”

“I am,” I reply weakly.

“Well, then I guess I am full of surprises.” He smirks for a second and then he looks at me with concern dripping off his high cheekbones, “What’s the matter?”

I start to sob as I flop onto his bed and curl up in the fetal position. “I just don’t know what I did to make him cheat,” I choke.

“What? Liam cheated?” Tyler jumps out of bed and runs through his messy bed head with his hands. He clenches his fists at his sides and mutters, “I’m gonna murder him.”

“Don’t bother; it was all my fault anyways. If I wasn’t such a prude and just slept with him, maybe he wouldn’t have cheated. He had needs and I couldn’t full fill them so he was forced to step out. I was the cause. It was all me. I can’t believe I messed this up. He is the most wanted boy in school and guess what, I had him! Without cheer and Brynn and Mom, he was the only thing left that I loved. Besides Joe, but he is always at work, partying, or with Adrian. I guess they are a thing now. And ya know why? Its because all they do is have sex. That’s what made their relationship work.” I spit, breathing hard.  My face is purple from screaming and crying. My hair is stuck to my face by my tears. I am so frustrated with myself. How could I do that? Almost every good thing that I have in my life is ruined. I wasn’t quite done with my tantrum, but when I go to start ranting again, Tyler cuts me off.

“Just shut up!” Tyler screams throwing his hands up in the air.

“Huh?” I respond weakly.

“How can you not get it? It’s not your fault. Sex isn’t what makes a relationship. It’s the connection that you have with a person. It’s a spark. That’s why Adrian and Joe are together. Can’t you see the way that they look at each other? When Joe looks at Adrian he sees a whole life with her. He saw that even before they started going together. In fact, I think he was scared of his feelings for her, and that’s why it took him so long to talk to her. Now, I know that he would never come out and say that, because he is just too macho to admit it, but I know him and he has never looked at a girl that way before. The point is that even if they didn’t have sex right away they still would complete each other. Sex is just the added bonus,” Tyler concludes with a wink.

“Wow, I wouldn’t peg you for the ‘believe-in-romance’ type,” I think aloud.

“Like I said, I am full of surprises. Just you wait!”He laughs for a second before his face turns cold again. “Anyways, I don’t understand why you are so quick to get mad, and blame yourself when you should be angry at the whore who he cheated with.”